Emptiness....

doko ni yukebaii anata to hanarete
ima wa sugisatta toki ni toikakete
nagasugita yoru ni tabidachi wo yume mita
ikoku no sora mitsumete kodoku wo dakishimeta
nagareru namida wo toki no kaze ni kasanete
owaranai anata no toiki wo kanjite
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE

LONELINESS YOUR SILENT WHISPER
FILLS A RIVER OF TEARS
THROUGH THE NIGHT
MEMORY YOU NEVER LET ME CRY
AND YOU, YOU NEVER SAID GOOD-BYE
SOMETIMES OUR TEARS BLINDED THE LOVE
WE LOST OUR DREAMS ALONG THE WAY
BUT I NEVER THOUGHT YOU'D TRADE YOUR SOUL TO THE FATES
NEVER THOUGHT YOU'D LEAVE ME ALONE

TIME THROUGH THE RAIN HAS SET ME FREE
SANDS OF TIME WILL KEEP YOUR MEMORY
LOVE EVERLASTING FADES AWAY
ALIVE WITHIN YOUR BEATLESS HEART
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE

nagareru namida wo toki no kaze ni kasanete
owaranai kanashimi wo aoi bara ni kaete
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
nagareru namida wo toki no kaze ni kasanete
owaranai anata wo toiki wo kanjite
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE
DRY YOUR TEARS WITH LOVE

If you could have told me everything
You would have found what love is
If you could have told me what was on your mind
I would have shown you the way
Someday I'm gonna be older than you
I've never thought beyond that time
I've never imagined the pictures of that life
For now I will try to live for you and for me
I will try to live with love, with dreams,
and forever with tears
- Tears, X Japan


Just watched an episode of an anime.. that's about to have quite tragic ending if i'm not wrong.... seeing the main character at this point of time ... i can't help but feel for him.

Life still seems meaningless. Can't help but think about it every now and then. Been trying to avoid it.. tried not to think about it.. but when it pops up in my head... i just feel... totally empty..

How nice it would be.. if you could have someone to share everything that u go thru....

But...can human beings be that close without rejecting each other?

Its like... are you able to share ur deepest and darkest secrets to the person closest to you without any fear of rejection?

Somehow... it seems impossible for me.. in the end... those i feel closest to just... slowly get further and further away from me somehow.. happened too many times in the past. Maybe i felt betrayed once too many times. That's why i've closed up.

People say that everybody has a soulmate... probably not me. Yet the hope lingers inside of me, wishing that someone would be there for you when you know that its not possible ...Ahhhh damn fucked up feeling. Always think of this kinda stuff during the late nights especially...

In your times of pain and sorrow.. no one's there for you... even in times of joy.. it still remains the same. Alone. Alone. Alone.

Someone mentioned that i should give people a chance instead of just thinking that no one will be able to accept me for what i am... but ... i dunno ... maybe i'm just withdrawn to my fate.. maybe i'm just too scared of the rejection again...

Thats why they call dreams.. dreams....

Miracles just don't exist in my life.

Death appeals to me... but how can it kill me when i'm already dead inside?