Dedicated to you

I never thought that i could feel this way.

Your eyes, voice and smile just captivate me.

I see the universe within your beautiful eyes.

I hear a trembling heart within your voice.

I feel the warmth,love and tenderness from your smile...

You've brought so much joy into my life.

Sometimes, no amount of words can express how much i love you... or miss you...

Whenever i'm with you, it just feels right.

And that everything's going to be just fine.

I just want to forever embrace this Happiness of mine.



For every up, there may be a down.

For every good, there may be a bad.

But through it all,

We'll make it together.

Our hearts will always be tied together...

Chained by that invisible thread called Love.



I Love You.





P.S.: 4 Promises 4Ever. I'm non-refundable, non-exchangable, & stuck with you for life ~

Crumbling Faith. Unyielding Doubt. Vanishing Vision

damn it !

5 days already and my hands still have no power in them... zzzz... cant even tear / open the plastic off my comics....

and my left arm's shaking quite a lot whenever holding anything... even something as light as a comic book... -_-"



oh well. this means back to soccer then. hahaha !

and oh... goodbye bukit merah. hello thomson... soon !



somehow... inspired to write something due to my melancholic mood + the song i'm listening to now...






The piano broke its silence.

Distorted, the broken melody filled the air.

His eyes lost their glitter,

as his trembling fingers touched the keys named "Sorrow".

Praying for a miracle,

Playing for tomorrow,

The never ending Yesterdays echo behind.

Crumbling Faith,

Unyielding Doubt,

Vanishing Vision...



He would never see it ever again...

not within his embracing arms.

Tears of the sunshine faded away

Swept away by the hollow darkness of the night.

Black and white images flashed upon the silver screen.

Giving it's last shout as the reel steadily burnt away.

Ashes to ashes, dust to dust.

Crushed beneath the sands of time.

Blown away by the ravages of the wind.

Drowned by the jubilance of the new day.

Forgotten by the beatless heart.





Alone he was not.

And so, he held her hand.

they just slipped away.

like sand flowing thru the gaps of my fingers.

sitting there.

staring into blank space once again.

the attack never ends.

war-cries permeate the air.

and i stand up once again.

and look over the edge...

Truth within Lies. Lies within Truth

As the wind howls at me,

As the rain mocks me in my face,

Holding the broken compass in my hands,

Will i ever be able to find the harbour once again?



The sands of time have erased the footprints...

I can't trace back those steps.

The sands of time have clogged up my vision...

I can't look back anymore.



When straight lines seem crooked.

When circles turn into squares.

When your heart breaks into a million pieces...

Every single shattered memory can be seen through all so clearly.



The truth had never come more painful than that.

Still it's something i had embraced all so dearly.



Would the truth never have come... had i not shattered my heart?

Tell me.

Tell me.

All i see left is ... denial and contradiction.

ah... things always never go according to plan.

hoteh clique .. the one who with the "pirate house" go thailand... lol... so :S

now... suddenly can get the car... hmmm... and half dun feel like drinking... so... already halfway to flying kite. sorry martin !

tomorrow.. mother's day...and mass downloading/printing of notes day.

time to prepare for the one final leap for this semester once again.


this sem is so tiring even though i've slacked so much.

feels like i'm suffocating



and i realise. it's the eve of the 1st anniversary of this blog... haha...1 year's almost gone.

How far i've come... oh so far...

how high have climbed... and how hard i've fallen...

ahhh... looking back on the past year. it's just... just... brought me so much more than the past 21 years of my life.

love.hate.anger.laughter.smiles.sadness.fear.disgust.happiness.death and rebirth as well.

new frds. long-lost frds. frds i never was so close to before.

how i've changed also... from someone who bottled up everything... to shooting my mouth off a lot. hahaha...

all the experiences i've had.. having so much fun...

and... also... that...

but oh well life goes on.


suddenly felt like coming up with some lyrics or whatever ... haha...suddenly just an image popped into my mind. better write down before it goes away.



Time-Machine ( shall improvise on it once i've got the time...)

My heart is like a time-machine.

I stand awaiting for the future.

Yet i'm tempted by the past.

The past.

Even with it's blemishes,

How i embrace all so closely to my heart.

The future.

Never knowing what it brings.

I can only hope it turns out to be so magical.

Hope that it can erase this past.

Make me not look back.

Life goes on.








Haha... time for me... this old uncle... to continue his journey...

one year has past. will this "new year" be once again be filled with so much stuff ? haha.. hopefully... and pray that it's more of the good stuff... hahaha...

more random mumbo jumbo

it's been a long time since i've come up with something original. been talking about my life and having fun so much recently. hahahaha.

actually nothing much i can come up with now. but just felt like blogging. hahaha.



Tearing across the horizon,

The golden rays of the fading sun pierced through the orange sky.

Warmth filled the air.

All was at peace.




haha. just came up with that at the spur of the moment. so late at night already but just dun feel like sleeping.

Hmmm someone told me to "open your eyes big big" .... to see what ? hahaha. nothing to see right ? unless the hidden meaning within it is... hm.. lol never mind. shall see whatever comes.hahahaha.

and hm.. very strangely...now suddenly i'm motivated to study once again. this whole semester... i've been so unmotivated... been slacking so much. suddenly i want to start mugging again for no reason ! lol ... funny sia... actually just wanted to relax this semester so that i wont get burnt out for the next semester which is more impt... this semester doesnt affect honours while next sem has a module which is core/primary to the honours entry program.

kk my eyes slightly more tired now. shall stop typing. haha

chilling out ~

The Lonely Piano Player

I couldn't look forward
Not knowing whether you would still be standing there
I couldn't look back
It only pains me with all the memories
Now i'm at the crossroads once again
Where the heavy rain pours upon me

I'm stuck once again with this knife planted so deeply in my heart
How could i even bear to pluck it out when it's all i have left?

I can only find your love in my dreams
Sleep is a narcotic which can calm this raging heart
I cannot bear to let you go
So for now
I continue walking in my dreams
Till the day my heart finally dies

When did the melody ever go so wrong?
How could i not see the madness of the conductor
How could i not see the breaking of all the strings
How could i not see the stage collapsing

Actually i knew
Just that i had gorged my eyes out
Cut off my ears
Peeled off my skin
I wanted to ignore everything
Deny the very reality i live in

But i knew i could pull the song together
At this very treacherous crossroad
At this very collapsing stage
At this point where music is fading away
With this knife within my heart
Where i refuse to give up the dream
I'll continue being that piano player
Playing the bleeding melody of his heart

Even if it comes to the end of the world
Even if all that's left is a wasteland
Even if i'm a thousand miles away from you
I still can't forget
That mischevious smile of yours
The feel of your skin
You'd think a thousand miles would be enough
I guess i'll keep on walking

Until the day
Where i will finally
Find you once again
In the corner of the tiny little bar
The colours of my heart
Will breathe life into this desecrated world
And the melody of my heart
Will play once again...
For the one and only...

You

X Japan Song Titles put together... hm.... just really rubbish.

ok this is pure crap... but has most if not all the x japan titles out there. Now i'm just finding a way to put everything together into one nice story... this is a pure draft of the things i've thought of while going thru the titles.




Without you...

I.V. me with Blue Blood as i stepped on the Rusty Nail

while i'm Longing for you to Say Anything within this Endless Rain...

Silent Jealousy and Tears embrace me as i sing The Last Song...

but all i find is just Voiceless Screaming...

putting on the mask and turning into a Joker

who keeps refusing to let go of the Rose Of Pain...

Scars left on my hand reflect my Sadistic Desire...

Alive...and yet dead

painting the Art Of Life with Kurenai,

Drain me of my soul over the Weekend.

the Phantom of Guilt appears behind me,

Stab Me In The Back while i'm Unfinished,

as he says "Give Me The Pleasure & I'll Kill You".

Vanishing Love, Forever Love, Crucify my Love

Desperate Angel falling from the sky,

Miscast within the White Poem I,

Standing sex and Orgasm was all it found

together with the 20th Century Boy.

Celebration of Dahlia's Easy Fight Rambling.

the Evolution of the Love Replica.

it's so easy to be Time Trip Loving,

to change the past and save it's Virginity.

X marked the spot.

Darkness

The flickering lights of the city streets

where shadows reside in the fog

The darkness of the night

where snow descends into a hateful oblivion

The sky becomes a mirror

of fear, darkness and terror

There's nothing but coldness out there.

All black.

No...

Darker than black...







Ok might have sounded crappy -_-" but whatever

背叛 - Betray My very own english translation ( Bleah i know my english sux )

Verse 1
雨 不停落下来 花 怎麼都不开
尽管我细心灌溉 你说不爱就不爱 我一个人 欣赏悲哀

Verse 2
爱 只剩下无奈 我 一直不愿再去猜
钢琴上黑键之间 永远都夹著空白 缺了一块 就不精采

Chorus
紧紧相依的心如何Say goodbye 你比我清楚还要我说明白
爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢 我用背叛自己 完成你的期盼

把手放开不问一句 Say goodbye 当作最後一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今後都不管 只要你能愉快

Verse 3
心 有一句感慨 我 还能够跟谁对白
在你关上门之前 替我再回头看看 那些片段 还在不在

ok... now for my english translation

Verse 1
Why doesnt the rain stop?
Why don't the flowers bloom anymore?
Even though my heart tries so hard to fill you with love,
You said you didn't love me anymore.
Leaving me all alone,
I could only drown in sadness

Verse 2
All that's left are the regrets of our love.
I'm not willing to continue playing the guessing game.
In between the black keys of the piano,
Keys of emptiness forever reside.
If one goes missing,
It'll lose it's brilliance.

Chorus
How could two hearts linked together so closely... even bear to say goodbye?
How could you, who knows more clearly than me, ask me to explain it all?
Falling so deeply in love,
Will only lead to blind, reckless courage.
Once again, i betray myself
To fulfill your expectations

Letting go of each other's hand, you never even said goodbye.
Take it as if it is the last time i'm loving you.
No matter how cold it becomes,
No matter how long it takes for the feelings to fade.
All i want...
is for you to be happy.

Verse 3
My heart is feeling flustered.
Who can i convey these feelings to?
Before you close the door on me,
Look back on my behalf.
All that we've been through,
do they still exist in your heart?

Turn Back The Pendulum - Inspired by the chapter's title from Bleach

Turn back the Pendulum.

Tock. Tock. Tock. Tock.

The deafening sound permeates the air.

Didn't i notice it all along?

I try. Nothing.

I try harder. Still nothing.

Denying pain, denying my very own pride, denying the truth.

I just refuse to accept it.

I keep going... and going...

But where will i end up eventually?

Would it have been better if the Pendulum were not set in motion in the first place?

But it has.

Now i can only hear the melody playing out it's story.

What awaits at the end of the melody?

A beautiful melody filled with pain and laughter? Or will it just slowly fade away eventually...

No matter what...

The Pendulum still stands where it was all along.

Meifumadō

Darkness blinded the eyes.

A soaked paper. Black.

Weakness befell.

Tearing the very fabrics of reality.

Denial by pride, contradiction by power.

Existence.

The paper that should have never been there?

Spilt ink. Blotted paper.

The truth that will never be.

Truth no longer is truth, but melded with kind lies.

But Time tells no lies.

Garden of Sinners

Drip.

Was that a teardrop?

"Hm... it's starting to rain..."

Bright clear skies. Sunlight.

Silence.

Yet amidst the deafening silence, screams could be heard.

Screams which could be felt by the heart.

"Heh... so will... you... be coming together... with... me ...?"

"...No... I'll stay...i don't belong in paradise..."

"......."

He had his last words.

She got up, taking the bloody knife out of the limp body who was once an angel to her.

And so, she slowly walked...

back into the Garden of Sinners...










Ok... just a lame attempt at a mini story/scenario...haha... was just in the mood to write something but dunno what to write about.