Melancholy

Ahhh fuck.

I once swore once.. to try to live this life w/o any more new regrets..

sadly.. i broke it. over and over.

Just can't stop thinking about what i've done. Just can't stop thinking whether...

Never mind...

These kinda times really make me wonder what's the meaning in life.. even though logically i know that there isn't really any fixed answer...

Raison D'être,Raison D'être,Raison D'être,Raison D'être

Guess i'll never be able to find one in my life.

Especially after reading Venus Versus Virus.. wah.. volume 4 really almost made me cry... can just empathize with the Lucia.. whatever that she's going through... the fear... fear... fear....Hah.. but all comic characters that are so emo.. in the end.. they have happy endings... in real life.. it'll never happen....

Life needs to be tinged with sadness.. before u realise what bliss is.... but once you screw it up.. and the blissfulness is gone... only leaving you in the darkness once again... and it won't come back... The feeling would be even worse than before you know what bliss is....

Ahhh how i wish i could turn back time...

Living life in the darkness is truly something scary.. something which can drive people to the edge of madness...Fear dominates your life... its effects can't be just described in words...

Guess i'm just living in a world called " Neverending Spiral Of Fear and Insanity "

And i'm trying not to let anyone into my world... i don't want to suffer no more.. nor do i want people to see my suffering... I don't want any more false hopes... i don't want history to repeat itself anymore...

Currently Listening To : Abingdon Boys School - Howling ( Darker Than Black OP1 )