Game Over

Been quite some time since i last posted. Wasn't in much mood ... nor had the energy la...

Zzz trying to take my mind off things... then go on shopping spree.. now my wallet hurts instead... Cables, speakers, specs, comics, clothes, files, etc... siao liao la...

LoL went out for lunch with Ming and Christina the other day... found out much more about them... esp chris with her "naughty" adventures and ming talking about lifestyles... haha.. interesting people to be with... Chris's from Ipoh also.. haha.. and ming told me quite a lot of stuff about australia... Need to mingle more with the class...





Think its time for me to take the first step... think i've been trying to live a life of lies... trying to live a life of fantasy all along...

Its not wrong. But its not right either. Am i happy now ? Nope.... I seriously need to change my life bah..think its time for the truth.

Anyway.. i just wanna say i'm sorry for all that i've said. I was probably childish. I was harsh ... you probably felt betrayed by me. But i dun expect you to forgive me. That day i was really feeling extremely.. emo if you'ld call it. Was just thinking it over... i'ld probably grown too dependent on you emotionally...too attached to you... i was .. afraid. Afraid of losing it all. Sometimes.. some things that were said.. may have just been just minute.. but it mattered all so much to me.. just so afraid.. cause it mattered to me so much. You may not have noticed it.. but some words just hurt me alot.. just that i tried not to show it. Sometimes it really made me feel tired...yea.. i'm weak and i'm selfish.. sorry for not emphatizing with you more... sorry for being the fucker that i am ... Wish that sometimes things would go back to the way they were... but its not possible now... i just fucked my own life... thought of .. talking to you.. but i know that its not possible anymore...

Well... i've said what i wanna say... and i wish you gd luck for the future bah... i'll try not to look back ... time for me to step up to reality and pray i never make this kinda mistake again... Cursing my own foolishness won't help me now...



Currently Listening To : X-Japan - Tears ( Live )