lost

i really dunno what to say now... all these memories all flowing back to me. all my regrets. all my mistakes. all my screwups. wanna let go but i can't. the demons of my past refuse to go away.

i find myself... losing sight of everything now... i really feel that there's no future... and the past only holds sadness... totally no point in my life already.

just tired. tired.

why do i drag myself up everyday...

and its really sad... when ur life derails to the point where... even the nice good memories... bring so much pain to you...

i really dunno what to live for already.

FUCK IT I WANT THOSE MEMORIES OUT OF MY LIFE BUT I JUST CAN'T LET GO... WHY THE FUCK CAN'T I LET GO WHEN IT ONLY BRINGS PAIN.... WHY WHY WHY?????