Signal - Kelun ( Gintama )

Aa~ I'll call out your name over and over, until the call reaches.
Turn the needle of my heart!

I left my heart behind in this drifting town.
Losing fragments of courage along the way.
While I'm alone, I'll just be withering to death, until the time when we meet.

Aa~ I'll keep on crying out your name until it reaches you
So turn the needle of my heart!

Crossing over the sunny sky, the colours of my heart become clear.
You smile quietly, even though you're crying.
Although it's embarrassing to phrase it like this; you are, the only thing in my heart.

Aa~ Any time, I'll sing!
You are the song that protects my heart.
So come now, over here!

At times when loneliness suddenly attacks, I don't want to forget it; This melody that echoes at your side.

Aa~ I will carry on living.
Right now, there's a signal that I exist, until this life is over.

Come... I'll keep going whenever I fall, even at times of struggle.
Sound the bell of my heart!

Happy Birthday To My Dad and Mao Mao

Haha.. firstly... happy birthday to my father !

and happy birthday to ah mao~~ wishing you all the best!
Thanks for the party ~ had lots of fun... especially enjoyed the part where you and your gf had to go on stage and be teased... haha...and i really enjoyed the food, kbox and MJ session... it's been quite some time since we all hung out together like that already... haha...

Merry Christmas Everybody ( Though a little late ~)

It's been quite a while since i last updated... but i've just been really busy lately ( more of lazy also actually... ) haha...

Firstly... merry christmas everybody... especially to my dear...

Haha... mainly spent the whole of last week rushing lots of stuff... assignments watsoeva... then last minute christmas shoppings and preparations... this week is really a hectic week... christmas eve, christmas, frd's birthday, dad's birthday, relatives visit, frd's wedding... etc etc etc... just a bit tired now.

Haha... went to Traders Hotel's Cafebiz to have dinner with Eileen on christmas eve... was really quite nice... with a guy posing as santa going about, and nice food and ambience.. ate till we were really full...

After that we went to West Coast Park... it didn't exactly have a beach, but there was sloping rocks where people could sit on just right beside the sea... there were quite a lot of people at night...but still relatively quiet and nice... had a relaxing time there... totally chilling out under the moon initially... before the clouds came and blocked it all out... haha.. and we also had fun with sparklers as well ~ haha... doing all kinds of funny stuff... and i think we used about 100 whistling sparklers... it really was a pretty sight...

It was really fun and nice time... i really do hope to have more happy memories together with you... these memories will be forever held close to my heart...



Now for the photos ~! Courtesy of Eileen's camera...

Traders Hotel !!


Me and Eileen in front of the Christmas Tree


Me in the top hat ~ ( accessories given along with the buffet... )


The Gentleman and the lady... wait a minute... who's who ??



At West Coast... playing with sparklers...











Me in all the funny poses...




















Now Eileen's turn to go ~~ haha~~











Look at the number of sparklers we used... >.<"

X Japan - I.V.

Needles are piercing through my skin
I'll tell you the feeling what it's like
Is life just all about deception?

Please don't be a part of a fairy tale,
but you're so young to play with thy own will
Should I trade the breath of my life for freedom?

(In the rain) I'm calling you, dear
(Find the way) Can't you see me standing right here?
(Feel my pain) Life's bleeding from fear
(Find its place) I will give it straight from my vein

Needles are piercing through my skin
I don't fear the fucking life

This never meant I can't sit by
They say as if it takes me somewhere
Just let me swallow the faith by injection
Life better be rushing to my head, my love

I've played with this game before to find a piece of my true self!
I'm lost within!

(In the rain) I'm calling you, dear
(Find the way) Can't you see me standing right here?
(Feel my pain) Life's bleeding from fear
(Find its place) I will give it straight from my vein

I'm feeling my pain
Do you feel where it's been
Can you cope with history of the world,
when it's sad part of life?
Can set the shadows fade,
forever fade away

I'm calling you, dear.
Can't you see me standing right here?
Life's bleeding from fear.
I'll give it straight from my vein.

(In the rain) I'm calling you, dear
(Find the way) Can't you see me standing right here?
(Feel my pain) Life's bleeding from fear
(Find its place) I will give it straight from my vein

decisions...decisions....

hm....thinking about it....

busy busy

been really really busy lately... lots of assignments and tests... so havent really been updating...

but i must say life has certainly gotten more interesting...

lots of questions

lots of "poking"

haha. whatever comes shall come.

shall update whenever i feel like it.. or when i'm too free.

Ana - Lia ( From Clannad )

The place changes and goes. Like a wind, like clouds.
Like the traces of the heart, no halt at the places.

The place is so far away. be far apart.
people's hand does not reach,so merely has (the) worship.

The place is a lofty lord. can't meet nobody put on.
We will lose the place.so lofty which changes.

Not all were desired. However, we're never sad.
still, there is still the place.far away. far away.

(The wind) blows through the place. an endless,with all.
Like the ripple float on the water, It blows as it goes.

the place is No make at all. Nothing is shown.
Like the sand clasped by hand, It falls vainly.

The place is (a) profound lord,and wear the vain faint light.
But we will find it in the place.The hut at which it stands still.

if not concerned with all,It will maintain that No dye.
therefore there is still the hut.It's lonly, solitary.

no halt at the wind.it soars to the sky.
Like the verdure (which) meets with sunrise, It grows up as reborn.

The hut has held new one.that's different from all.
like the sand castle of the children,but realized with the mind.

The person is a vain statue.wear taciturnity calm.
still,We will know a huge flow.It is stopped by nobody.

soon,the wind wears the snow cloud. will be dyed to snow-white.
Summer grass will incline.No sunlight,feebly shade.

The place buried in deep snow.like the collapsing castle.
like the head of the shade,figure will be thrown away

The hut buried in deep snow.It sinks in to the flood.
and The "not dyeing" is dyed out,and waits for a oppose one.

Even if all are healed, be gonna no return.
there is still the place.far away. far away.

The place changes and goes. Like a wind, like clouds.
Like the traces of the heart, no halt at the places.

The place is a lofty lord. can't meet nobody put on.
still,there is still the place.far away. far away.

what???

just a bit frustrated.

a bit...

a bit...

feels as though... it's...

ahh. whatever.

open sesame

life. haha. roller coaster. run away. fight. miracles.

wheeeee

whew. been out a lot for the past 2 days.


friday morning school, afternoon movie, night walk-a-bout...

today... wake up at 11... lunch.... ferry / drive around / go out for a spin... dinner with miss chew....

2 good days of fun. time to go back to work.

p.s. good luck for the driving test... if u pass... u know what u can get from me... haha....

:D

feeling quite energetic today.

hyuk hyuk hyuk.

The LONG personality test..

http://www.okcupid.com/tests/16567335035599898597/LONG-Scientific-Personality


Your Score: INFJ - the counselor
You scored 36% I to E, 36% N to S, 23% F to T, and 31% J to P!

Your type is best summed up by the word "counselor", which belongs to the larger group of idealists. Only 2% of the population share your type. You are so empathic that you often know what others need before they know themselves. You are a complex person who can deal with complicated issues and people, almost prefer to, as you love problem solving. You can be something of an idealist or perfectionist, and should try to take yourself a little less seriously.
You are a supportive and insightful romantic partner, encouraging your mate to have dreams and work hard to make those dreams come true. Because you are so creative, you have a wealth of ideas to help them toward those goals. You need harmony so much that you are driven to resolve conflict quickly, as long as the terms don't violate your ethics. You feel the most appreciated when your partner admires your creativity, trusts your inspirations, and respects your values. It is also vitally important that your partner be open and emotionally available - in other words, that they be willing to share themselves completely.
Your group summary: idealists (NF)
Your type summary: INFJ


Sounds.... funny though. hahahaha

yawnz

didn't go to class today. slept till 12... actually i'd set the alarm to 9:30am to wake up and do my assignments... but i think i was in too deep a sleep...

2007.

looking back... the year is about to end already.

one helluva year for me. lots of ups and downs. one year that i'll never forget.

army screw-ups, ORD, working, quarrels, depression, uni , assignments and exams, return of X japan, etc etc etc.

so many things. especially the bad ones.

but at least now... its much better already... stopped being sad so much already. i've really been shaken up by some people...

its time to tip the scales into my favour... WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Say Anything ( Translated into english... )

Say Anything - X Japan
Words & Music by Yoshiki

Only my heart's pounding, stab my heart. The silent vision of love.
Forget the time, as the cry travels.
Walking through wet Tokyo, feelings make my heart rush.
Run away from realty, I've been crying in a dream.
Frozen time makes me shiver.
Building up my tainted memories, until my sadness vanishes.

You say anything, the fitting word that blesses,
Say anything to my lying heart
If I can't go back to where I have been, I'll live only in dreams,
Getting wet in the endless rain.
Colour my running tears within my daydreams.

You say anything, whatever you'd like to say to me.
Say anything, you leave me out of my eyes.
You say anything, all I can hear is a voice from within my dream.
Say Anything, you can dry my every tear.

The lights have gone out on the stage, staring lonely, embraced by the days that have gone past.
Destroying everything, including our sacred love,
Until it vanishes in the sands of time.

You say anything, whatever you'd like to say to me.
Say anything, you leave me out of my eyes.
You say anything, all I can hear is a voice from within my dream.
Say Anything, you can dry my every tear.

Close your eyes and I'll kill you in the rain.
If a beautiful murder is fitting, the artificial rose is buried,
Shedding in the memory of a poet.

Time to change my life, but my heart remains the same to you,
Time to change your heart, my love for you never changes.

You say anything, the fitting word that blesses,
But say anything to the heart that can't break.
You say anything, say anything, now you've gone away, where can I go from here?

Say anything ... say anything...

I believe if time passes. ..everything turns into beauty, if the rain stops, tears clean the scars of memory away ... everything starts wearing fresh colours ... every sound begins playing a heartfelt melody ..jealousy embellishes a page of epic, desire is embracing a dream, but my mind is still in chaos and...

quite down...

just feeling really really down now. was holding back really hard just now.

sigh.

thinking...

Should i... or should i not...

Voiceless Screaming - X Japan

I'm drowning in sadness
Falling far behind
I feel there is just no way out
Is there anyone there? Where am I?

Insanity and loneliness
Tear my painful heart
Broken heart keeps on going to beat
But it never stops bleeding

I've been waiting for love to come
Someone who wants to touch me inside
Memories of my yesterdays

Careless words and deeds
Masquerade of love
Gotta find my way outta here

I was blinded by dark desire
Over time I've been through it all
I'm crying my share of tears

What can I do
Will I make it through
I must be true to myself

Voiceless Screaming
Calling to me inside of my heart
Voiceless Screaming
Now is the time I got to speak out

Voice of faith, I'm starting to realize
Now my eyes can see
I have gone so far
I'm feeling breath of life

And I'm looking for love to reach
Someone I want to touch deep inside
Light shines on my sight of doubt
Don't be afraid
Move forward one step
Willing mind is what I have found at last

Voiceless Screaming
Calling to me inside of my heart
Voiceless Screaming
Now is the time I got to speak out

Voiceless Screaming
Calling to me inside of my heart
Knockin' on my soul's door
I believe in myself and trust what I do

Voiceless Screaming
Pain of the past still hurts me inside
Knockin' on my soul's door
I climb the stairs that lead me to Heaven








Emo song. haha. though i'm not feeling so now. :D

Luna Sea - I For You ( English Translated )

Hey, the truth is that someone said, hey, that I can't love anyone
I finally realized the significance of meeting you, who is so nervous

If we met one another in order to get hurt, then this is just too sad

I want to tell you something from my heart...
I'm just looking for your true form

You still smile awkwardly, sadness still suits you

If I was born in order to meet you, then I wonder if I can change?...

I want to tell you something from my heart
I'm hurt a little bit too much, but I'll still be on time
I love you from my heart
I want to wipe all of the pain away that falls on you, I for you

I want to tell you something from my heart
If only I can always look upon your smile

I love you from my heart
I want to gather up all of the light that falls on you, I for you

boring

hm. bored. tried to do effective writing but i had no motivation + no inspiration to do so....

bored.bored.bored.

i...

feeling extremely extremely scewed up now

i want to....

forget it. no point saying anything anymore.

mix

mixed emotions now.

like my heart's a battlefield now.

euphoria.helplessness.happy.sad.

on the back of a liverpool 4-0 win. but... when it all dies down... what's left ?

life's tough. life's unpredictable.

but... why focus on the sad things... look forward to happy things instead... enjoy life...

but just that these feelings refuse to go away. like ghosts haunting you... they never go away.

they shroud judgement. they mess up the brain. they are the cause of all these sadness.

sigh. feels like a knife has just stabbed through my heart.

words that can never be said. words that are kept silently within the heart.

words that want to just burst out. words that must be kept inside.

secrets.

my stand now? i dun really know anymore. What if the paths only lead to regret & there's no way out?

i dun understand why anymore...

sigh. really makes me want to forget it. yet still... i'm still wishing.

wishful dreams i guess....


i realise that my post is very disjointed... but its just all the random stuff that's coming to my mind...

just frustrated with myself. quite frustrated. i really hate feeling helpless.

Neglect....

i've so neglected my piano + guitar .... been stuck at the same part of the piano piece for so long... never advance for so many months already... its time to pick up again..

and time to get serious about learning the guitar also...

just have to motivate myself more now...

So Close - Jon Mclaughlin ( From the movie "Enchanted" )

You’re in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I’m with you
So close to feeling alive

A life goes by
Romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close

So close to reaching that famous happy end
Almost believing this was not pretend
And now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come
So far we are so close

How could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We’re so close
To reaching that famous happy end
And almost believing this was not pretend
Let’s go on dreaming for we know we are
So close
So close
And still so far

FULL FULL FULL .... AT NEARLY ZERO COST !!

Wow... one of the best.. or "bestest" days for eating.... WAHAHAHAHAHA SO FULL !!!!

started with lunch today... was my parent's wedding aniversary... so they brought the whole family to Royal Plaza on the Scott.... its just located opposite far east .... beside shaw centre / lido .... super full... ate at the restaurant called "Carousel" there... international / meditteraenean (however u spell it) style.... with nice ambience and stuff.... ate quite a lot there...and only cost 38 per person... which was relatively cheap already considering it's hotel standard + its quite good... got japanese food... got seafood ( clam, mussells, crayfish, crab.. etc etc etc ) ... local fare , nasi briyani stuff.. beef... pasta... etc etc etc etc

after that... went to meet eileen to watch movie... watched "enchanted" ... quite funny... especially the chipmunk... but.. haha... its ur usual family movie... and everybody lived happily ever after in the end... haha... the male main character's a bit like me...initially he dun really believe in such things as "happy ever after" but he changed later in the story ... maybe i'll become like him ( towards the ending part ) someday .....

and after that.. we went to walk about... and ... haha.. "thanks" for bringing me about "those" sections ar.... make me pick and do those stuff... haha....

and so... went for dinner at ichiban... now PART 2 of the eating fair kicks in.... so... both of us went in and sat down. now, eileen just so happened to have the ichiban card fully chopped... which entitled her to one free spin at the "wheel of fortune" ... and so i went to spin the wheel.. and ... TADAAAAAAA TOP PRIZE ... $80 voucher !!!! hahahahaha... and so we went on a eating spree.... had a big blast... really ate until super full...and... we ate up to almost 82 dollars worth of food... only paid the difference .. which was $1.65... ( $82 worth of food which does not include the free dishes from the ichiban card... which i think would have totalled it up to about $100+) .... whew. really really really good dinner..

really really really good day for eating... especially one day after "hell week" just finished... haha... so satisfied now...

So... i must say... thank you eileen ! haha... if not for your card, i wouldn't have had such a great dinner ~~

shagged

ok... got thru the middle part of the semester... all the assignments, tests and tutorials starting to bog down on me already...

got thru 1) psych mid-term 2) counselling presentation 3) effective writing assignment 4) treadmill exercise at NUH...

tiring week for me... esp falling a bit sick midweek ....

but oh well.. pulled thru... i'm just soooo gonna slack this weekend.

jsut feel slightly like a roller coaster ride this week. so many things. feeling quite melancholic this week...

been asking myself some questions recently. been thinking about stuff recently.

haha. think i'll spend the weekend enjoying some moments of solitude... think i haven't really have had the time to be alone recently...


Just some random rubbish to add on... thinking about "rose of pain" from x japan... and just some stuff from my previous writings...

" Afraid to pick the thorny rose that you've admired so much for fear or being hurt? Or are you afraid of it wilting away after you've plucked it? In the end... you know it all ends up with nothing... but still... you're hoping deep inside... "