t(-_-t)

great. its my birthday and i'm feeling absolutely, extremely fucked up.

I don't even feel like going anywhere fancy to eat.. and yet i'm "forced" to... "since its my 21st birthday" ...

Whatever.... i don't think birthdays are worth celebrating.. especially since there's nothing to be proud of...

Proud of living like a zombie for the past 21 years ?

Proud of dragging my soul-less body around for the past 21 years ?

Proud of living with this pain since god-knows-when ?

Zzzzz... think i'll just drink it all away for today.... can't be fucked...

I really don't know what to expect anymore in this life.

I just want to throw it all away.. my dreams.. my expectations...

Cause in the end.. all of it only serves to betray me...

This pain is ripping my soul apart.

No longer able to see life in the same light...

Give me a reason...

Give me a reason.....