搁浅

~搁浅~
歌:周杰伦
作词:宋健彰作曲:周杰伦
钢琴:周杰伦编曲:钟兴民


久未放晴的天空
依旧留着你的笑容
哭过却无法掩埋歉疚

风筝在阴天搁浅
想念还在等待救援
我拉着线复习你给的温柔

暴晒在一旁的寂寞
笑我给不起承诺
怎么会怎么会你竟原谅了我

我只能永远读着对白
读到我给你的伤害
我原谅不了我
就请你当作我已不在

我睁开双眼看着空白
忘记你对我的期待
读完了依赖
我很快就离开

久未放晴的天空
依旧留着你的笑容
哭过却无法掩埋歉疚

风筝在阴天搁浅
想念还在等待救援
我拉着线复习你给的温柔

暴晒在一旁的寂寞
笑我给不起承诺
怎么会怎么会你竟原谅了我

我只能永远读着对白
读到我给你的伤害
我原谅不了我
就请你当作我已不在

我睁开双眼看着空白
忘记你对我的期待
读完了依赖
我很快就...

我只能永远读着对白
读到我给你的伤害
我原谅不了我
就请你当作我已不在

我睁开双眼看着空白
忘记你对我的期待
读完了依赖
我很快就离开

fuck off. u fucking cb.

haven't blogged in quite a while. been too tired and busy to do so recently. and i'm also not feeling well now.

hm.... recent events.... mainly enjoyed the last week of holidays last week... attended cousin's wedding on saturday...sunday night went to martin's farewell dinner + drinking...

wah fuck drink until damn hiong that night... i also dunno what i doing already...

rushed home to watch euro 08... puked before doing so though.

woo hoo ! spain won ! the team i support ... wahahaha.

and so started school on monday... slept at 5am then wake up 7:30am due to a phone call ... damn shag sia when i go to school... then tio diarrhoea on the very same day...

then yesterday... had sch from morning till 5... then went to the airport to send martin off... see u soon !

today. woke up to a bad start. backache + diarrhoea + heavy head + sore throat.

bleahz.

busy busy. tired tired.

passed by just now.

"stop & stare"

what a coincidence.

but i no longer recognise you.

nor did you recognise me.

somehow. it seems like the very statements i try to defy... have been proved even further.

as much as i do not want to believe in those... but sadly... i'm just at the point where i've given up.

sometimes, even trying your best, can never be enough.

all it does is to make you fall even harder.

another night out

Qb -> MOS -> back to QB

8pm-6.30am.

damn shag now. but still cant get to sleep. somehow keep waking up.

nothing much to say bah... except..

huh? me? join the karaoke competition ar? mmm....shall consider bah.

spent yesterday clearing up my room... cleaning up the day... putting books away... and throwing away some... stuff...

the past few days has just been tinged with sadness.

it's always there.

always.

fated.

hm... probably it's fate bah...

again.

same place.

different times?

or perhaps...


hockey. howl's moving castle. crazy taxi. daytona. sandman. bras brasah. pc show. sony ericsson. clementi.

i still remember it all.

oh, how we moved on without goodbyes...

let me be alone for a while

more dota ! more street soc ! more mahjong ! more euro 08 !

this is what the holidays is all about :D

but...1 week more to end of holidays :(

hahahaha... i'm mad liao.

tonight ben house. see you there. may the "qi dui zi" and "toilet" gods give me all the huatz luck tonight !

really a week of madnessssssss....


ahahahahahaa. cant remember the exact details... last saturday ben ben house mj + soccer... monday lunch with mum and sleep, tuesday outing to pasir ris, wednesday and thursday was ben ben house stayover mj + watch soccer, today = go out with dad and mum.. sleep... and now i'm typing this post right before going to meet up with martin & co at QB... drink wakakakaka... tomorrow will probably be a day off to regen my energy... before soccer on sunday again... unless at night go someone's house stayover + watch soccer... spain vs italy if i'm not wrong... big match...maybe mj also...

lol long wall of text. and so the cycle repeats, go out, stay over, mahjong, watch soccer, play soccer, rinse and repeat

hahahaha.


and to miss S.H. and also my "gd buddies" : LOL ! it's definitely not possible for sparks to fly ... hahaha... er... but i dun discount the 0.001% probability of that happening

What Hurts The Most - Rascal Flatts

What Hurts The Most

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don’t bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I’m not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I’m ok
But that’s not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin’ to do

It’s hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I’m doin’ It
It’s hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I’m alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin’ with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That’s what I was trying to do

......

......

......

living in a diamond crevasse.

where my heart shall remain eternally frozen.

ok... saving money once again.

aim for end of the year : to get one dtxplorer kit. wahahahaha

the rare peek into what's going on...

mmm... just doing whatever i can to keep myself occupied. especially for this holidays.


now i'm sorta at my limit... probably cause i'm both physically and mentally pushed to the edge already. guess i need some place to rant everything...



even up till now.

i still feel weak.

i still feel confused.

i still feel defeated...

and lastly... afraid.

it just all brings me down to my knees. literally.

the things and places that i see... with the evoking memories... still strike me so deeply.

it all just leaves me clutching my chest... my bleeding heart.

and also putting on this iron mask of mine... hiding those tears of mine.

pretend. pretend. pretend. all because i know that i'll only make others sad if i keep looking sad. i feel it's right to put on this mask. but it's tiring.





the bleeding has eased. but can it ever stop?





and lastly... well to some people whom i spoke to... it's actually not that i'm not interested... it's just that i'm afraid bah. i can see myself doing what i know i'm not supposed to do...i never want to see history repeat itself... even if i'm in a different role.

damn. i just realise. i CANT FUGGING GO CLUBBING WITH MY FACE PEELING ....

ok. clubbing's out.

sorry >.<"

ok basically. the story that i didnt finish. something that X said struck me. about what happened.

it just mirrored what happened.





yup that's it. probably doesnt make much sense... cause my brain ain't making sense to me also anyway. probably all fried on the inside already from yesterday.

i'm am so fugging shagged. saturday night mahjong + sunday morning soccer. body aches + back ache. die die die. and tomorrow sentosa. almost couldnt move my body out of bed when i took a nap last night. also got quite bad sunburn.

so tired. but so many things to do. ahahaha...


and i also hate it when i'm so tired... tend to get somewhat more ... emotional i guess....






it was so hard for me to say those words back then... i'd found that very last bit of courage to stab down deep into my heart. but... that wasn't just the end.






was reading something back then on X's blog. back then during my army days. i was scolding and fuming. how Y didnt seem to treasure what he had. then i realised...

forget it. don't wanna write anymore.

quoted off from somwhere...

Trust is a fragile thing. once earned, it affords us tremondous freedom. but once trust is lost, it can be impossible to recover. of course, the truth is, we never know who we can trust. those we’re closest to can betray us & total strangers can come to our rescue. in the end, most people decide to trust themselves. it really is the simplest way to keep from getting burned
-Grey’s Anatomy

yawwwwnnnn ~~~

just wake up. damn shag. damn damn shag.


and ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

so many things to do. SO MANY MANY MANY MANY THINGS TO DO...

so many things to do... and all happen at the same time sia...

i need to split myself into like... 5 parts so that i can do all at teh same time?

eg : go out with frds at night vs watch soccer (esp with spain) vs mahjong...

the 2 other extra parts would be just for chilling at home/ drinking or maybe just sleeping LOL.

not to mention there's dota, piano, drums ( should i take it up seriously? fred was suggesting i try... hm...), etc etc etc...

yaawwwwwnnnn.

so sleepy.