Nemo

This is me for forever
One of the lost ones
The one without a name
Without an honest heart
as compass

This is me for forever
One without a name
These lines the last endeavor
To find the missing lifeline

Oh how I wish
For soothing rain
All I wish is to dream again
My loving heart
Lost in the dark
For hope I'd give my eveything

My flower, withered between
The pages 2 and 3
The once and forever bloom
gone with my sins

Walk the dark path
Sleep with angels
Call the past for help
Touch me with your love
And reveal to me my true name

Oh how I wish
For soothing rain
All I wish is to dream again
My loving heart
Lost in the dark
For hope I'd give my eveything
Oh, how I wish
For soothing rain
Oh how I wish to dream again
Once and for all
And all for once
Nemo my name forever more

Nemo sailing home
Nemo letting go

Oh how I wish
For soothing rain
All I wish is to dream again
My loving heart
Lost in the dark
For hope I'd give my eveything
Oh, how I wish
For soothing rain
Oh how I wish to dream again
Once and for all
And all for once
Nemo my name forever more

- Nightwish

Random Stuff and ODEX's 2nd wave

Wounds. Destiny. Beleaguer. Vain. Justice. Cresent. Prayer. Dreams.

The Sacred Moon.

Sadame.

1) "Planet Mars will be the brightest in the night sky starting August.

It will look as large as the full moon to the naked eye.
This will cultivate on Aug. 27 when Mars comes within 34.65M miles of earth.

Be sure to watch the sky on Aug. 27 12:30 am. It will look like the earth has 2 moons.

The next time Mars may come this close is in 2287.

Share this with your friends as NO ONE ALIVE TODAY will ever see it again.."

Taken from HWZ Forums.




2)LoL for anyone interested.. go check out Freud's interpretation of this following dream. May be a bit .... >.<" LOL

"A huge, strong serpent appeared and dove into the sea and stabbed an apple with its broad sword. It then fired rounds from its shiny, black, and imposing handgun"

Taken from the anime < Welcome to the N.H.K ! >


3)Hm...the 2nd round of ODEX catching people who download anime ( those listed on their AVPS webby )has just been done... ( They sent out the letters on Friday the 13th somemore.. wakao ). Seems like more people kena this time.. and more people are talking about it. Over HWZ forums, etc etc etc. A few things on this issue.

Wow.. singnet really doesnt protect our privacy. They just release our private CONFIDENTIAL particulars to ODEX. Zzzzzz Singnet.... so far no one from Starhub kena...

Odex is definitely taking a scare and bully tactic. Send people letter.. saying can charge up to 10k per infringing article.. etc etc. Then tell the victim that this matter can be settled out of court... with a fee of ard 3-5k. Bring you to the depths of hell before giving you the ray of hope. This is the type of attitude i ABSOLUTELY loathe. This type of psychological attack to make you give in easily... FUCK IT MAN.

ODEX even tries to hush people up.. telling their unfortunate "victims" to hush it up and not tell anybody about this matter.

And ODEX.. if u're reading this ... dun bother getting me to shuddup. You're all over the internet forums...

Really gotta question the democracy at times.... Really wonder whether our National Pledge has any meaning anymore.

More and more people are questioning ODEX's methods.. like whether its possible to counter them either LEGALLY , or by ALTERNATIVES.

I Believe that its possible to counter them legally.. but singaporeans just have the mentality of being "hum". Born, Lived, and taught the values of not to be authoritarian... See lawyer's letter... must die die try to settle out of court and "not lose face" or dun take the risk of going to jail.

And i've to admit.. i'm one of those kinds of people.

Imagine. You get jailed for this ( Yes it's possible. The Jap Anime companies can sue you. ). Then you get out.. you go into society...and apply for a job..

Question: Did you go to jail ? What did you go to jail for.
Answer : Yes. Jailed for... downloading anime...

Dumb.Dumb.Dumb.Dumb.Dumb.

Oh.. but the silver lining amongst this dark clouds.. someone called up AVPS to check out their stance on anime not within their list. The result ?

OOTZ ~~ ODEX will not catch ppl downloading anime that are not listed in their list.... CAUSE THEY CAN'T ~~~ WAKAKAKAKAKA

http://sgcafe.com/showthread.php?t=34110&page=3

3rd Picture SPAM ! Warning 56k ( And more Anime-related )

The Last Song

Watching the stars till they're gone.
Like an actor all alone.
Who never knew the story he was in.
who never knew the story ends.
Like the sky reflecting my heart.
All the colours become visible.
When the morning begins,
I'll read the last line...

Endless rain, embraces me. Night approaches morning.
My heart is not yet soaked.

In this endless rain, I've been walking.
Like a poet feeling pain.
Trying to find the answers,
trying to hide the tears.
But it was a circle
that never ends.
When the rain stops, I'll turn the page,
the page of the first chapter...

I'm only hurt. Hurt me.
The answer I should have understood. Why am I still asking the question.

Am I wrong to he hurt?
Am I wrong to feel pain?
Am I wrong to be in the rain?
Am I wrong to wish the night won't end?
Am I wrong to cry?
But I know, it's not wrong to sing the last song,
cause forever fades...

lf I wake up again, I'll gaze at the night sky alone.
Our memories fade away little by little.
I'm only hurt. Hurt me.
The answer I should have understood. Why am I still asking the question.

I see red.
I see blue.
But the silver lining, gradually takes over.
When the morning begins,
I'll be in the next chapter.

Endless rain embraced me.
Night approaches morning, my heart is not yet soaked.
I'm only hurt. Hurt me.
The answer I should have understood.
Why am I still asking the question.


- The Last Song , X Japan ( Eng. Translation )

Enough is ENOUGH !

Fuck it.

Just because i'm studying psychology doesn't mean i can fucking read all your minds.

And i'm not there to fucking attend to your fucking whimsical nature and the " I-am-the-alpha-male" behaviour.

Fucking hell can't make up your fucking mind.

One moment you tell youself to get over it... then u look over it again...

And i tell you to move on. Its just a small matter.

Especially when you're in a rush to watch ur TV.

Just only 30 cents overcharged and long waiting time.

" Just get over it, buy the milk that we need and lets go."

What do i get? ....

"Shut up. Ok? You're studying psychology so you should understand..."

WHAT THE HELL.

WOW CAUSE I STUDY PSYCHOLOGY I CAN READ MINDS.

WOW I CAN SEE THROUGH EVERYBODY.

Look. I know u're frustrated. But thats so fucking wrong man.

So now i can't give my own fucking opinions w/o being sarcastic that i'm studying psychology.

So i can't give my own fucking opinions except to whoever i'm counselling in the future.

Seriously fucking hell.

Freedom of expression in this world is becoming a rarity these days.

Just can't sleep.

Her. Him. Him. Him. Her. Her. Her. Him

The sequence of people i got close to... but eventually lost.

But i guess i deserve this. I'm one fucked up person.

Pain and regret are still running rampant through my life. Overwhelmingly.

I think... i just can't carry on anymore. This time's its just not bottled over like in the past. It's just too painful to bear this time around. Too many scars.

Wish whichever god out there can just take away my life.

Everything's too screwed in my life at the moment.

Higurashi No Naku Koro Ni ED1 Eng Translation ( Tv Size )

" I cover your corpse with soil...

even though that may have been forbidden.

There was a temptation you could not hide... in your pure blissful eyes.

Why does sin exist ?

Why does punishment exist ?

That blindingly white end of the canal... invited the infinite darkness.

I can see everything clearly now.

It will soon vanish...."

Higurashi No Naku Koro Ni Kai OP1 < Karaku no Hana > a.k.a. < Flower in Hell >English translation ( TV Size )

"Come , let us forget about that future...

ending up stained in blood again.

If the soft wind coils up,that is probably a sign.

Break free! Break freak from your heart-wrenching fate.

You are not a flower in hell.

Don't blossom in such a place. Don't blossom there. Don't get entangled.

Fragments of time flutter about without a sound."

Questions and answers and life....why ?

No definite answer to anything in life. That's what i need to believe in.

I'm supposed to be critical of everything. Every single thing. Question every single damned thing.

But still i seek the ultimate answers.... which.. don't exist....

Awww .... sometimes driving me nuts.











Why we do things in a certain way.... why we behave in certain ways.... there's all meanings to it.... just depends on how each individual perceives our actions....

Sadly.... most never think deeper than the surface. Perhaps its too deep to understand.

Most can never understand the feeling of seeing a light in the darkness... only able to see it... coming so close to touching it.. grasping it.. but yet its all so far away.....

Cause they are surrounded by lots of light... but they don't know it...believing that they live only in the darkness.

Bash me. Reject me. Hate me all you want if you all think I'm wrong. I don't give a damned now. Everyone is entitled to their own godamned personal opinions.

Honestly i'm very sad to say this but :

Everybody has their own characters. Dun like them, then fuck care them. Dun fucking step over their fuckin heads by fucking threatening them. Nobody fucking likes being threatened. Especially using friendship as a tool to threaten. Even though it may be with good intentions... but that's fucking way overboard. They are who they are. Leave them alone.


End my torment. Enough is enough. I really need to let go of the past.

My life is a fucking joke. Hope comes and goes so fast that i'm unable to take it anymore. Good things don't last for me ... not a single time. In the end.. all the people around me will hate me. And sadly i've finally accepted this fact.

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

Numb this pain. Numb this heart. Stop it from beating....

Truth become Lies.. Lies become the Truth

Strange world izznt it ?

Guess i'm the only one topsy-turvy in this world. When i'm serious.. people think i'm joking.. when i'm joking... ppl think.. i'm... idiotic ?

Mentioned so many times already... dun get too close to me. And i don't wanna get close to anybody either.

Even though my heart may oppose this.. but i know what always happens in the end.

" I learned the lesson long ago ... to not have hopes for the future..so that i won't be hurt. But as i indulged myself in ... everyone's kindness... i was forgetting that very basic mindset. The emptier you are... the less you'll lose."

- Ayasaki Hayate

Woot ~ i wonder how much more screwed my life will turn out to be.... hahahaha.... must be something i deserve... must be something i did in my previous life... wakakakakakaka

Hm?

Think she's there no longer...

Just let me rest this week.......

-S-c-h-o-o-l-- .... U*N*I LIFE HAS STARTED LIAO

Wahhh long time never blog liao.

Uni life has just started for me. LoL .1st day. Hmmmm .... reminds me of JC times.. lecture like having a tutorial liddat.. cause 1) its in a classroom , not a LT. 2) JCU doesnt have as many students as NTU and NUS , SIM , etc.

Haha... then the ratio of guys to gals is quite roxy.. gals outnumber guys at least 2:1.. maybe 3 or 4 : 1 ....depending on which lecture....wakakaka...

LoL then i go into my "more confident" look when i went to the campus today... took initiative to meet new people.

JCUS Psych course ..Got acquainted with Junyan ( both pronounced in 4th sound ) , Shawn , Leslie and a Swedish International named Mikael ( hopefully i got this spelt correctly too ) who's been staying in Singapore for 12 years if i remember correctly... and yea he's good looking... bet the gals will be surrounding him. And yea.. he's intending on staying in Singapore.

Wakaka... mainly had introductory lectures today... about the courses and modules stuff. Interesting lecturers.. especially one who had a "wicked" sense of humour.

LoL.. and she mentioned whoever is around us in the future.. will become our "potential victims" to our analysing...

Haha... but nothing much la.. only 1st day.. wakakaka... only sit until a bit restless with the 3 hour lectures. But in the future will have lots more hands on :D

Oh ... and DAMNNNNN KEVIN FOR TEMPTING ME.. fucking hell... tempted me to buy the Claymore manga.. now i'm gonna be poorer by 130 bucks this month.... But GOD ITS GOOD ! WORTH THE $$$$ !!!!!!

LIVING EXPENSES T_T SCREW the 7% Increase in GST...

ZZzz Month just start.. and i spend like what ? 100++++ bucks already.. wakao.. buy new earphones, and 6 books of manga ( another 7 coming up..) ...all in 1 day. fuck fuck fuck. Then still got transport costs, eating costs... and other misc. stuff. Think i better go on diet + turn into "MISER MODE" ....

And please.. dun tempt me to play mahjong anymore..... no more < ZEI WU > for me. no more $$$ liao

Tomorrow i gotta go deposit more of my cash savings into my bank account and top it up... i think i'll have ard.... * undisclosed figure... but its not much :D *

Saving for a rainy day is good... :D :D :D