how am i to accept it this way?

i'm tired. i need a break.

黑色幽默

难过是因为闷了很久
是因为想了太多
是心理起了作用
你说苦笑常常陪着你
在一起有点勉强
该不该现在休了我

不想太多
我想一定是我听错弄错搞错
拜托我想是你的脑袋有问题

随便说说
其实我早已经猜透看透不想多说
只是我怕眼泪撑不住

不懂你的黑色幽默
想通却又再考倒我
说散你想很久了吧
我不想拆穿你

当作是你开的玩笑
想通却又再考倒我
说散你想很久了吧
败给你的黑色幽默

我的认真败给黑色幽默

轨迹

怎么隐藏我的悲伤
失去你的地方
你的发香散的匆忙我已经跟不上

闭上眼睛还能看见
你离去的痕迹
在月光下一直找寻那想念的身影

如果说分手是痛苦的起点
那在终点之前我愿意再爱一遍
想要对你说的不敢说的爱
会不会有人可以明白

我会发着呆然后忘记你
接着紧紧闭上眼
想着那一天会有人代替
让我不再想念你

我会发着呆然后微微笑
接着紧紧闭上眼
回想那一年你温柔的脸
在我忘记之前

心里的眼泪
模糊了视线
你已快看不见

as the night gives it's final roar, so shall i take my last breath

Risk

“Risks must be taken, because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.”

Dance baby Dance !

QB. Zouk. Double O. 2000 - 0000 - 0100 - 0400

Shagged.

At least i got to enjoy my last night of total freedom to the max :D had a blast !

now time to hit the books and lab reports and assignments once again. no more time to play around already...



P.S. i believe i can still squeeze in some fun somewhere though :P

不值得

Sad yet blessed

My line got stolen. BIG TIME.

The other day. Bleahz.

Realised it too late.

Now everything good that's left...is being killed.

Sad yet blessed. That's all.

Curry chickens

suddenly i'm thinking of the past.

back when i was playing ice hockey.

back when he passed away so suddenly...

this logo that will never see the light.

curry chicken... to think it was my idea...

another fren who drew the picture...

but he never got to realise that dream with us.

just another regret of my life. just another one.

How it came about ? Why the lame curry chickens ?

Because of my famous line during JC and sec school days...

"If you were a chicken wing... i'ld be your chicken curry... to embrace you with warmth all the time..."

Lame. but it's an impt line in my life. my very own original line. and how it just reminds me of him... a short few months only.. but he just came and went like the wind. god... when i looked at his body lying there... it was just so sad... but no tears came out from me... cause they had already finished long ago when i received news of his accident... sigh.

i wanna ice skate again. the feeling of grinding and sliding around on the ice is uncomparable... just that i cant find people to go with me nowadays. i cant go alone... just not alone...

STOP!

firstly. sorry to everybody whom i've worried.

secondly. i've just did it again. for the 2nd time in my entire life. and worse than the first time.


julian ar julian... when will you finally...

What a day it's been.

Pray

i'm praying hard now. really hard.

i just want the smile back on everybody's faces...

even though i know it's going to be hard to go back to those days.

why, oh why, oh why....

why did "whoever is up there" have to let me thru this episode ? for my own good? to make me see more clearly?

hopefully i dun need to show that ugly side of me if things turn ugly.

i can only pray.

Never Sometimes

well i never wanted
it to be this way with you.
so broken-hearted.
look at all the things
we've been through.
sometimes i,
sometimes i can catch up with your words.
you're hard to follow,
so hard to follow.

tragic,
to realize that you talk to much.
so tragic,
to realize that you're far too gone
to say you're wrong.
sometimes i,
sometimes i can catch up with your words.
you're hard to follow,
so hard to follow.

tie the rope around me once more.
i might bend, but i won't break.

take this timeout
to find yourself.
take this timeout to learn.

Of Brothers and Gay Partners....

really really thankful to fund and martin for going out with me last night... feeling somewhat... better already i guess....

drums, drums, drums,

wagan soon? :P

mac,

"99 bends"

kent ridge park

rifle range...

tyres screeching, body slamming and hanging on for ur dear life...

haha... what a way to spend these sleepless nights...

just sad that i only just found out that martin's going to australia to study now... going off in june...i'm really glad that he's finally found his path... just that it's sad to see my "gay partner" go off... so ok my resolution for now is to come out and meet up with martin whenever he jios me out...hahaha... except for exam period la...

so for now... SATURDAY MARTELL ON AR~~ GO GO GO !!!! maybe club ? hm....

and fund was saying last night towards the end that really struck me... cause it was something that was true but i didnt realise so far. Oh well... what can i do about it? haha... just cant stop it from being that way for me.... but i'll definitely do what fund said last night...

" It's only after we've lost everything, that we're free to do anything" - Cant remember who said already


Leave it to me, to lose all your confidence
And no i can't stop, this train wreck before it hits
I hope I don't sound, like the X's on your calendar
I stumble on new ground, to gather up the formula

How selfish of me, to think I'm the only one
To question mistakes, a fools game I'm losing now
Just taking my time, planning out my escape
I'm scared what I'll find but it's the choice I have

X Japan Song Titles put together... hm.... just really rubbish.

ok this is pure crap... but has most if not all the x japan titles out there. Now i'm just finding a way to put everything together into one nice story... this is a pure draft of the things i've thought of while going thru the titles.




Without you...

I.V. me with Blue Blood as i stepped on the Rusty Nail

while i'm Longing for you to Say Anything within this Endless Rain...

Silent Jealousy and Tears embrace me as i sing The Last Song...

but all i find is just Voiceless Screaming...

putting on the mask and turning into a Joker

who keeps refusing to let go of the Rose Of Pain...

Scars left on my hand reflect my Sadistic Desire...

Alive...and yet dead

painting the Art Of Life with Kurenai,

Drain me of my soul over the Weekend.

the Phantom of Guilt appears behind me,

Stab Me In The Back while i'm Unfinished,

as he says "Give Me The Pleasure & I'll Kill You".

Vanishing Love, Forever Love, Crucify my Love

Desperate Angel falling from the sky,

Miscast within the White Poem I,

Standing sex and Orgasm was all it found

together with the 20th Century Boy.

Celebration of Dahlia's Easy Fight Rambling.

the Evolution of the Love Replica.

it's so easy to be Time Trip Loving,

to change the past and save it's Virginity.

X marked the spot.

In the end...

That's it.

I'll move on.

I'll see where life takes me to.

Even if it hurts so much now.

I'll find happiness once again.

Just need some time.

" If you have lost your happiness once... wouldn't it be simple to just look for it again ? " - Anon

Medley

Prologue ~World Anthem

Music: F. Marino words: Yoshiki

All of the hate and all of the sadness
have melted away nothing remains here close by
I see love trying to take shape
as I reach out for it the love breaks up before my very eyes
everywhere there flows ... blue blood




Kurenai

music & words: yoshiki

I could not look back, you'd gone away from me. I felt my heartaches, I was afraid of following you. When I was looking at the shadows on the wall, I started running into the night, to find the truth in me...

In the crowded street, you're standing all alone, the shadow of the days hide your heart. You are bringing down the heart of the night, keeping everything off.

As if something gonna force you, now your running into the storm! Can't you see I'm always on your mind, tell me why you leave me alone.

When I was gonna be losing you in my mind, found my heart in soil. I'm looking back to the days. These are gonna break my heart, but I can never hold back. All of you in my memory, is still shining in my heart Now you're wearing the mysterious lights, it keeps me ... sticking into my heart.

My heart has been... going to be dyed in deep red ... with all the pain. There's no one to cure my pain, only without you. How I try to shout how I try to run, there's nothing I can do. The wall hiding my heart is never broken again, how I try to break!

As if something gonna force you, now your running into the storm! Can't you see I'll always on your mind, tell me why you leave me alone.

My heart has been... going to be dyed in deep red ... with all the pain. There's no one to cure my pain, only without you. How I try to shout, how I try to run, there's nothing I can do. The wall hiding my heart is never broken again, how I try to break!

My heart has been... going to be dyed in deep red ... with all the pain. There's no one to cure my pain, only without you. How I try to shout, how I try to run, there's nothing I can do. The wall hiding my heart is never broken again, how I try to break!

Cry in deep red...



Longing ~Melody

words & music: Yoshiki

Even pain is seen in words, even tears gather.
Someday, memories will flourish.
That's why it's an unchained melody, hold my heart
I will still be alive tomorrow, even if I can no longer meet you.

Sing without you, I'II sing without you,
can't you feel my heart, falling through the rain.
I sing without you, I'II sing with out you,
can't you hold me tears, cause still I love you.
I cant face the thought of being alone,
I sing for the song still carries on.

Hold my heart, memories are still singing, even if i have no voice.
Sing without you, I'll sing without you,
can't you feel my pain, there's nothing I can do.
I still have a longing for your memory, even if the memory is only pain.
I won't let my feelings show.
Now, I don't want to be alone.
In the pouring rain, it all must be a dream, from tomorrow on...

Sing without you, I'll sing without you,
can't you feel my heart, falling through the rain.
I sing without you, I'II sing without you,
can't you hold my tears, cause still I love you.
Sing without you, I'll sing without you,
can't you feel my heart, falling through the rain.
I sing without you, I sing without you,
can't you hold my tears, cause still I love you.


Crucify My Love

Words & Music by Yoshiki

Crucify my love - If my love is blind
Crucify my love - If it sets me free
Never know, Never trust
That love should see a color
Crucify my love - If it should be that way

Swing the heartache - Feel it inside out
When the wind cries - I'll say good bye
Tried to learn, Tried to find
To reach out for eternity
Where's the answer - Is this forever

Like a river flowing to the sea
You'll be miles away, and I will know
I know I can deal with the pain
No reason to cry

Crucify my love - If my love is blind
Crucify my love - If it sets me free
Never know, Never trust
That love should see a color
Crucify my love - If it should be that way

'Til the lonliness shadows the sky
I'll be sailing down and I will know
I know I can clear the clouds away
Oh is it a crime to love

Swing the heartache - Feel it inside out
When the wind cries - I'll say good bye
Tried to learn, Tried to find
To reach out for eternity
Where's the answer - Is this forever
If my love is blind
Crucify my love - If it sets me free
Never know, Never trust
That love should see a color
Crucify my love - If it should be that way



Endless Rain

music & words: yoshiki

I'm walking in the rain,
though everything seems to be hurting me for some reason.
There is only nothing.
Just kill me now ... as I roam forever.
Until I can forget your love.

To me sleep is a confusing, narcotic
that only quiets the beating heart.
All my love seems to flow from my body like a heart felt memory.
I keep my love for you to myself.

*Endless rain, fall on my heart In this wounded soul.
Let me forget, all of the hate, all of the sadness,

Days of joy, days of sadness slowly pass me by.
As I try to hold you, you are vanishing before me.
You're just an illusion.
When I am awake, my tears have dried in the sands of sleep.
I'm a rose blooming in the desert.

It's a dream, I'm in love with you.
Hold me warmly in your arms.
I awake from my dream
I can't find my way without you

The dream is over.
I can no longer hear the voice of your gentle words.
Floating off tear stained walls.
So awakening in the morning, I'll move into my dreams ...
until I can forget your love.

repeat *

Endless rain, fall on my heart, in this wounded soul.
Let me forget, all of the hate, all of the sadness.
Endless rain, let me stay a memory in your heart.
Let me take in your tears, take in your memories.




Forever Love (original/acoustic version/last mix)

music & words: yoshiki

I'll never walk alone again, the winds of time are to strong.
Ah, it's that what you hurts, which you'll have to live with...
Ah, this tight embrace, and this burning, unchanged heart.
In this ever changing time, love will never change.

Will you hold my heart? Stop flowing tears.
Again, all of my heart is broken....

Forever love, forever dream
Only flowing emotions,bury this intense,
trying, meaningless times.
Oh tell me why ... all I see is blue in my heart.

Will you stay with me? Wait until after the wind passes,
all my tears are still flowing...

Forever love, forever dream Stay with me like this.
Hold my trembling heart in the dawn.
Oh stay with me...

Ah, everything good seems to be ending,
in this unending night.
Ah, what else would you lose if nothing at all matters.

Forever love, forever dream, stay with me like this.
Hold my trembling heart in the dawn.

Oh will you stay with me... Until the wind passes,
stay with me again.

Forever love, forever dream, I'll never walk this path.
Oh tell me why, tell me true, teach me how to live.
Forever love, forever dream, within flowing tears
Bright seasons will forever change again and again ....
forever love...



Rusty Nail

lyrics & music: Yoshiki

Staring at the painted rose in my shattered memory
Lost in my broken thoughts, the unchangable dream piles up
Oh-----Rusty Nail !

If i keep letting my tears flow
I am bound to forget you
Just tell me my life
Wherever i walk to see,
Because of the tears, i cant see tomorrow.

The rise has ended, forget the scars of the weekend
Even if i embrace the flowing time, my heart will still be pierced
Oh-----Rusty Nail !

If i keep letting my tears flow
I am bound to forget you
Beautifully the sleeping rose fades its colour
Let you heart fall downhill

With you untainted face you will surely live on
Your eyes that reflect that night leaves out only the blazing dream
Heading towards the morning, forgetting the loneliness
Holding on to my red painted wrist, i cried
Let the night come to an end

For the time being, shiver at the door of memories
In my broken thoughts, these blue lips pile up
Oh-----Rusty Nail !

If i keep letting my tears flow
I am bound to forget you
Just tell me my life
Wherever i walk to see,
Because of the tears, i cant see tomorrow

Painfully i decorated my heart...now also
I cannot get myself to forget youva'


Say Anything

Words & Music by Yoshiki

Only my heart's pounding, stab my heart. The silent vision of love.
Forget the time, as the cry travels. Walking through wet Tokyo, feelings make my heart rush.

Run away from realty, I've been crying in a dream.
Frozen time makes me shiver.
Building up my tainted memories, until my sadness vanishes.

You say anything, the fitting word that blesses,
say anything to my lying heart
If I can't go back to where I have been, I'll live only in dreams,
Getting wet in the endless rain.
Colour my running tears within my daydreams.
You say anything, whatever you'd like to say to me.
Say anything, you leave me out of my eyes.
You say anything, all I can hear is a voice from within my dream.
Say Anything, you can dry my every tear.

The lights have gone out on the stage, staring lonely, embraced by the days that have gone past.
Destroying everything, including our sacred love,
until it vanishes in the sands of time.
You say anything, whatever you'd like to say to me.

Repeat *

Close your eyes and I'll kill you in the rain.
If a beautiful murder is fitting, the artificial rose is buried,
shedding in the memory of a poet.

Time to change my life, but my heart remains the same to you,
time to change your heart, my love for you never changes.

You say anything, the fitting word that blesses,
but say anything to the heart that can't break.
You say anything, say anything, now you've gone away, where can I go from here?

Say anything ... say anything...

I believe if time passes. ..everything turns into beauty, if the rain stops, tears clean the scars of memory away ... everything starts wearing fresh colours ... every sound begins playing a heartfelt melody ..jealousy embellishes a page of epic, desire is embracing a dream, but my mind is still in chaos and...


Silent Jealousy

music & words: yoshiki

I'm looking for you,
trying to reach your roses,
carried away by the time.

Playing with the silent madness.

You've gone away from the stage,
leaving no words,
there's just fake tears left.

Looking for that bouquet of roses
that are admired through false pearls.

I'm blind insane,
in the red of silence,
now I've lost your love.

Look at me,
I'm stained to my fingertips in deep red.
I can't stand this song of silence.
Flowing into the sea of phantom images.
Even if I hold my heart,
the blood stained angel that has arisen.
I can not stop.

Silent jealousy, don't you leave me alone.
Falling into sadness, adored by love,
that I can't return to.
Into this repetitive solitude.
Tell me true, where ever I go,
I must learn to love this pain.
I still want your love, stop your love.
Silence the memories
where the madness grows.

I just wanted to stay with you,
I just wanted to feel the breath of your grace.
I didn't know what to do,
I couldn't say anything.
When consciousness returned,
everything had been washed away by the tide, even you.
But the scars of memory never fade away.
I can't stop loving you,
stop my tears,
stop my loving,
kill my memories...

You dyed my heart in blood,
no way to kill my sadness.
Kill me before you leave,
I can't see anything
with the vision set on maddened love.
Even now, I miss you,
I can't live without you...

Silent jealousy,
fall into a dream.
Keep holding on to the memory,
to the dream.
Silent jealousy, don't you leave me alone.
Fading into sadness ...
kill me love....


Tears

music & lyrics: Yoshiki

Where do we go after we're separated
Now that hanging question has passed
On an endless night, I dreamt of a journey
I gazed at the foreign skies
and embraced the loneliness
Tears always flow with the winds of time
It's not over, feel your sigh.

* Dry your tears with love

Loneliness, your silent whisper
fills a river of tears through the night
Memory, you never let me cry
and you, you never said good-bye
Sometimes our tears blinded the love
We lost our dreams along the way
But I never thought
you'd trade your soul to the fates,
never thought you'd leave me alone

Time through the rain has set me free
Sands of time will keep your memory
Love everlasting fades away
Alive within your beatless heart

* repeat

Tears always flow with the winds of time
It's not over, blue rose from sadness

* repeat

Tears always flow with the winds of time
It's not over, feel your sigh.

* repeat x2


Unnamed song from Eternal Melody

music & words: Yoshiki


I'm standing on the edge
And coming to my senses
From the reverie
Never thought I would
Never thought I'd need to
Say good bye, I bid you farewell
My voiceless words are swaying the flame
I can't live without...I can't live without
I can't live without you here in the dark
I whisper your name over again
Give me the strength to seize the light if I should find a way
I saw a dream
We were flying in the sky without a fear
Never touched the ground, that never came to my side
I tried so hard to reach out for your hand
The worthless weight kept your soul away
I can't live without...I can't give without
I can't breath without you here in the world
Do you feel the rain?
You said love takes no pain
With or without the sun
The lurid sky still tearing me apart
Wishing that freedom would reign over the pain
Give me the strength to leave the words that "Love will find a way..."
I can't live without...
I can't give without you here in the world
Do you feel the rain, over the pain?
Give me the strength to leave the words that
"Love will find a way..."
With or without the sun
I'll be the night that won't say good-bye (?*)
'Cause I, I know I'll be with you


Voiceless Screaming

music: Taiji
words: Toshi

I'm drowning in sadness,
falling far behind,
I feel there is no way out.
Is there anyone there? Where am I?

Insanity and loneliness,
tear my painful heart.
Broken heart keeps on going to beat,
but it never stops bleeding.

I've been waiting for love to come,
someone who wants to touch me deep inside.
Memories of my yesterdays,
careless words and deeds,
masquerade of love.
Got to find my way out of here.

I was blinded by dark desire,
over time, I've been through it all.
I'm crying my share of tears
What can I do,
will I make it through
I must be true to myself

Voiceless screaming,
calling to me, inside of my heart.
Voiceless screaming,
now is the time, I got to speak out.

Voice of faith, now I'm starting to realize,
now my eyes can see,
I have gone so far.
I'm feeling breath of life.

And I'm looking for love to reach
someone I want to touch deep inside.
Light shines on my sight of doubt
don't be afraid,
move forward one step,
willing mind is what I have found at last.

Voiceless screaming,
calling to me, inside of my heart.
Voiceless screaming,
now is the time, I got to speak out.
Voiceless screaming, calling to me, inside of my heart,
knocking on my souls door.
I believe in myself and trust what I do.
Voiceless Screaming
Pain of the past still hurts me inside
Knockin' on my souls door
I climb the stairs that lead me to Heaven.

Weekend

music & words: Yoshiki

I hear a knock on the door,
closing in on my eyes,
lost in the consciousness
is your whisper,
Over coming a melting heart,
a faded portrait reflects
my disappearing memories.

At once and still chaotic,
hateful black heart,
closes in on me.
A sharp, transient feeling, in a single wave,
becomes a hysterical wind.
Stopping tears, and held in feelings
in a colourless silence.

I've nothing to lose
(love me till the end),
except your heart.

Blood flows from your wrists and body
into the distant seas of time

Weekend, weekend, weekend,
I'm at my wits end.
Weekend, weekend, weekend,
I'm at my wits end.
Weekend??

I've nothing to lose
(love me till the end),
except your heart,
I've nothing to lose
(love me till the end),
except your heart.

No way out...
I hear a knock on the door,
closing in on my eyes,
lost in the consciousness is your whisper.
Blood flows from your wrists and body
into the distant seas of time...

weekend ... weekend.... .Weekend ...
I still love you ...
Weekend ...
but I cannot carry on!

Blood flows from your wrists and body
into the distant seas of time ...

Weekend, weekend, weekend,
I'm at my wits end,
Weekend, weekend, weekend,
I'm at my wits end.
Weekend, weekend, weekend,
I'm at my wits end.
Weekend, weekend, weekend,
I'm at my wits end.
Weekend...weekend ... weekend...




Art of life

music & words: yoshiki

Desert Rose, why do you live alone?
If you are sad, I'll make you leave this life.
Are you white, blue or bloody red?
All I can see is drowning in cold grey sand.

The winds of time, you knock me to the ground.
I'm dying of thirst, I wanna run away
don't know how to set me free to live.
My mind cries out feeling pain.

I've been roaming to find myself
How long have I been feeling endless hurt
Falling down, rain flows into my heart.
In the pain, I'm waiting for you.
Can't go back, no place to go back to.
Life is lost, flowers fall, if it's a dream, now wake me up.
If it's for real, just kill me.

I'm making the wall inside my heart.
I don't wanna let my emotions get out.
It scares me to look at the world.
Don't wanna find myself lost in your eyes.
I tried to drown my past in grey.
I never wanna feel more pain.
Run away from you without saying any words.
What I don't wanna lose is love.

Through my eyes time goes by like tears.
My emotions losing the colour of life.
Kill my heart, release all my pain, I'm shouting out loud.
Insanity takes hold of me...

Turning away from the wall I can see nothing.
The scream deep inside, reflecting another person in my heart.
All existence you see before you must be wiped out.
Dream, reality, memories, and yourself.

I begin to lose control of myself
My lust is so blind, destroys my mind.
Nobody can stop my turning to madness.
No matter how you try to hold me in your heart.
Why do you wanna raise these walls?
I don't know the meaning of hatred.
My brain gets blown away hearing words of lies.
I only want to hold your love.

Stab the dolls of hate.
Wash yourself with their blood.
Drive into the raging current of time.
Swing your murderous weapon into the belly. "The earth."
Shout and start creating confusion,
shed your blood for pleasure. And what?
For love? What am I supposed to do?

I believe in the madness called "now".
Past and future prison my heart.
Time is blind, but I wanna trace my love,
on the walls of time over pain in my heart.
Art of life.
Insane blade stabbing dreams.
Try to break all truth now.
But I can't heal this broken heart in pain.
Cannot start to live,
cannot end my life,
keep on crying.

Close my eyes, time breathes, I hear.
All love and sadness melt in my heart.

Dry my tears, wipe my bloody face.
I wanna feel me living outside my walls.

You can't draw a picture of yesterday so you're painting your heart with your blood.
You can't say no, only turning the wheel of time with a rope around your neck.
You build a wall of morality and take a breath from between the bricks.
You make up imaginary enemies and are chased by them.
You're trying to commit suicide.
You're satisfied with your prologue, now you're painting your first chapter black.
You are putting the scraps of your life together and trying to make an asylum for yourself.
You're hitting a hell at the edge of the stage and you are trying to kill me.

I believe in the madness called "now".
Time goes flowing, breaking my heart.
Wanna live, can't let my heart kill myself.
Still, I haven't found what I'm looking for.
Art Of Life
I try and stop myself but my heart goes to destroy the truth. Tell me why, I want the meaning of my life.
Do I try to live?
Do I try to love?
In my dream...

I'm breaking the wall inside my heart.
I just wanna let my emotions get out.
Nobody can stop, I'm running to freedom, no matter how you try to hold me in your world.

Like a doll carried by the wall of time.
I sacrificed the present moment for the future.
I was in the chains of memory half blinded.
Losing my heart walking in the sea of dreams.

Close my eyes, rose breathes, I can hear,
All love and sadness melt in my heart.
Dry my tears, wipe my bloody face.
I wanna feel me living my life, outside my mind.

Dreams can make me mad.
I can't leave my dream, I can't stop myself
Don't know what I am, what lies are truth?
What truths are lies?

I believe in the madness called "now".
Time goes flowing, breaking my heart.
Wanna live, can't let my heart kill myself
Still, I haven't found what I'm looking for.

Art Of Life.
I try and stop myself but my heart goes to destroy the truth.
Tell me why, I want the meaning of my life.
Do I try to live? Do I try to love?

Art of life.
An eternal bleeding heart, you never wanna breathe your last.
Wanna live, can't let my heart kill myself
Still I'm feeling for
A rose is breathing love, in my life...



The last song (memorial track)

music & words: Yoshiki

Watching the stars till they're gone.
Like an actor all alone.
Who never knew the story he was in.
who never knew the story ends.
Like the sky reflecting my heart.
All the colours become visible.
When the morning begins,
I'll read the last line...

Endless rain, embraces me. Night approaches morning.
My heart is not yet soaked.

In endless rain, I've been walking.
Like a poet feeling pain
Trying to find the answers,
trying to hide the tears.
But it was a circle
that never ends.
When the rain stops, I'll turn the page,
the page of the first chapter...

I'm only hurt. Hurt me.
The answer I should have understood. Why am I still asking the question.

Am I wrong to he hurt?
Am I wrong to feel pain?
Am I wrong to be in the rain?
Am I wrong to wish the night won't end?
Am I wrong to cry?
But I know, it's not wrong to sing the last song,
cause forever fades...

lf I wake up again, I'll gaze at the night sky alone.
Our memories fade away little by little.
I'm only hurt. Hurt me.
The answer I should have understood. Why am I still asking the question.

I see red.
I see blue.
But the silver lining, gradually takes over.
When the morning begins,
I'll be in the next chapter.

Endless rain embraced me.
Night approaches morning, my heart is not yet soaked.
I'm only hurt. Hurt me.
The answer I should have understood.
Why am I still asking the question.

Breaking through the glass

Darkness

The flickering lights of the city streets

where shadows reside in the fog

The darkness of the night

where snow descends into a hateful oblivion

The sky becomes a mirror

of fear, darkness and terror

There's nothing but coldness out there.

All black.

No...

Darker than black...







Ok might have sounded crappy -_-" but whatever

random thoughts

tiring weekend.

whee. must mug liao... brain and behaviour test coming up on thursday...

but instead... here i am blogging.

haha... just watched finish the 2nd out of the 3 concerts that X Japan just held ( 29/03/08 one )... ahhh... their liveliness definitely improved from the 1st concert... but toshi's voice also is obviously straining already...

just felt nice to watch them behave like kids again. how nice it is for everybody to be back together again.

but i know from the previews off their myspace page... that the final concert on the 30th should be the nicest one.... cant wait for it to be out...

long time since i've had this kinda heartwarming feeling... especially those with the theme of reunion... which barely touches my life...

hm... and oh... a new gadget to use... which will be useful in keeping me awake in class... haha... Asus EEE PC 4GB .... now can surf net, take ntoes, etc etc in class liao... wont be bored to death or sleep and snore -_-"

hm... feel like writing... but no idea what else to write about...

ah... nm ... shall start a new post... come up with some poems / writings stuff la... bleahz. maybe it'll turn out to be crap -_-"