whew. a tale of a wedding, ipoh hor fun, and lobster

wooo... never post for so long liao... but its been a crazy 1 week.

haha... went to malaysia last week... took lots of photos of the food there... all in my comp... haha... and some vids .... and i had some... relatively authentic ipoh hor fun in KL ... the stall owners moved from ipoh to KL like about 30+ years ago...wahahaha... ate 3.5 bowls at one go.. along with some prawn dumplings and wanton.... shiok shiok.... confirm put on weight liao ...

then come back on sunday... after dinner at the airport ( which had quite nice thai food ) ... went back home, dropped my stuff, and immediately went to faezah's house... of which i drove there... haha... Thanks to faezah for the invitation ! haha... the food was good.. and it was really .. interesting.. seeing the gals doing those.. "quizzes" ... hahahahahaha

and so... monday start school... with russell hawkins.. but yea.. already decided to change and drop his module ...for the effective writing one...

and on tuesday ... totally... havoc day for me. totally screwed -_-"

went with my classmates to go eat the macpherson prawn noodles at tai thong cresent for lunch... then serena and i had a small competition to see who could put more chilli into the noodles... then i put 5.. which was still ok.. she go and put 4... then only later in taxi then she say that it was too hot for her -_-" diao.... haha... then after the prawn noodles.. we went over to a nearby shop to have the soup.. eileen, serena and chris had turtle soup.. while i stuck to my black chicken soup... can't imagine the poor turtles being slaughtered... ( ok though its ironic that i'm still eating chicken, which is also slaughtered also )

after that... we decided to go over to serena's house to erm... initially sing kbox haha... wah... this was where the havoc part kicked in... play fusball ( i think that's how u spell it ? ) at first... now another movie ticket and ben and jerry's ice cream to the william sisters again...

THEN ... came the drinking games... at first we played indian poker.. then we drank... some bailey's creme caramel ( not sure of the name already ) ... and some hoe garden beer... and i tio quite a few times....

but the next game was the killer... also with cards... close to the dice game that most ppl play.. something like ...

cards 1, 2, 3 , 4 ,5 = u can direct the respective number of shots/sips/gulps of the card's number to any person u want

card 6 = person on left , card 7 = yourself , card 8 = person on right

card 9 = finish the whole cup

card 10... can't remember.... J & Q were for making "rules" though... like if someone breaks the rule.. he or she would have to drink one sip/gulp/shot ...

K = special.. there's a "jackpot" cup in the middle... where each time u get a K ... u add more alcohol into it... but the person who tio the 4th K ... has to down the whole cup..

AND somehow ... i keep getting aimed ... especially by SERENA !!! ... then CHRIS made some evil rules... like no saying of names... no laughing "haha" sound... and no saying the word "drink" ... but the killer rules for me ... were that all number 5 cards would be directed to me, so i'ld drink all 5 shots/gulps/sips down... and the 4th K ... whoever opens it.. the jackpot cup goes to me... so ... GG-fied... and of course.. accompanied with the rule breaking punishments... i was like.. bleahz. And yea... although the alcohol wasn't that much ( according to the rest ) ..

and what happened later... ok .. from this point onwards my memory's slightly screwed already... i only remember that we moved on to daidee...where the loser had to drink according to the amount of cards left... 13 = triple , 12 = double i think... then i was actually holding on to my cards.. and waiting to pull all out the cards at the last part... but i got beaten to it.. by serena... with all my 13 cards intact... and Chris drank one bottle on my behalf.. but by then .. i totally went gone case already... and they took some photos of me... and i saw... really totally red... not just the face... it WAS THE WHOLE FREAKING BODY !!! >.<" Really like a lobster....

Ended up going to the toilet bowl to puke 5 times.... afterwhich i felt much better... took me ard... i think 5-6 hours to recover... i just know i said quite a lot of crap and did some stupid stuff during that period... vaguely remember saying that i wanna chase the dog around the house... and i know i spilt tea over the floor first... then later another time... some water over the table and onto my handphone... bleahz -_-" feel really sorry for all the trouble....

then i know serena, pamela and the rest.. all trying to fake me... come up with the "oh u called out *censored*'s name out when u were drunk" ... hey hey hey .. i may be drunk... but i do know if i said such things... there's still a part of me that's conscious enough of all these... lol .... then now got all the photos of me being totally wasted... want me to treat them to what mariott, waterfront, etc etc etc... breakfast, lunch and dinner.... then what.. will show miss D those photos .. etc etc etc.... >.<" waaaaaaaaaa i swear not to drink liao..... well... at least for the rest of this year... WAHAHAHAHAHAHA

But.. yea.... it was fun :D :D :D :D We need more activities !!!! haha

And oh yea... driving's fun... been driving whenever i can... WAHAHAHAHAHA and my dad said my driving was quite gd... hahahaha whereby on the other hand he keeps criticizing my 2nd sister's driving ... MWAHAHAHAHAHAHA

ok.. this has been a long post... haha..

" The Name's Lee. Drunken Lobster Lee."

hurrah ! driving license GET !

YAY passed my driving liao... wahahahahaha ... 16 points....

but i had to queue up like... almost an hour at the licensing branch.. bloody long queue.... was done at the driving centre like ard... 1:40pm....

then headed on to meet eileen, serena, pamela, jeanette and ming for badminton... and even though i played for only 1 hour... i was quite shagged... super unfit... haha...

and .... Sorry eileen for hitting your head... think its a curse la.. everytime play badminton with u... sure hit you with the shuttlecock somehow ... >.<"

haha... then aft that was our .. lunch at 3+ ... at thai express... then we talked and sat there damn long... for 1 and a half hours i think...all the funny stories... haha...

after that was a movie.. "The Brave One" ... which wasn't that bad... except for the slightly more.. "happy" type of ending.... which i felt didn't really suit the show as the show's theme is quite dark...

then went back home...

just super tired now.....

going to malaysia tomorrow.. until sunday... got my cousin's wedding dinner to attend... haha...

probably gonna take some photos here and there....

kk too tired to continue... and ... oh...

WELCOME BACK X JAPAN .... their PV for their new song, I.V. , is up already .... you can follow their latest news here....

http://community.livejournal.com/xjapan/

-_-

driving test tomorrow. hopefully this time can pass... if not the next tests dates are around january... zzzz

wish me luck

emo mode

emo.

shagged

lethargic. nuff' said

exams are over !

finally! papers were... ok la... hopefully can get average of credit for all subjects...


damn shagged now. exams -> dinner at manhatten PS -> movie -> arcade -> supper ....


then got driving test ( AGAIN ! ) on tuesday... hopefully this time no stupid cyclist will appear out of nowhere and be a godamned road hog....

time to plan how i shld use my time for the holidays ... before i go to malaysia on thursday till sunday....

saturday... driving... then dinner + night time dunno how... maybe movie with wb...

sunday still free....

monday drivin lesson ... then free again in the later part of afternoon...

tuesday driving test...

wednesday free....

maybe its time i try to complete learning the piano piece that i'm learning to play... its been like months since i've progressed... still stuck on the 2nd page....

or mahjong anyone? haha

No wonder she keeps asking me whether....

ok... so the night before the last paper ... haha... already in the holiday mood... its been one hell of a ride for the past 2 weeks. chionging like mad. haha.... think most ppl shld know la... when i never sleep and chiong stuff ...

good thing about mugging... it takes ur mind off other stuff....

sigh.. once the exams end.. i think that all the other... un-wanted stuff is gonna flood back into my life.

so many questions. so little answers...

i've chosen this path... but is it the correct one ? am i having too many regrets taking this path ? what will it lead to in the end ? am i just on the path of self-destruction ?

haiz... fuck la...getting all emo today no thanks to that particular episode of the anime i watch today... -_- ....

its just sad when u know... that.. u'll destroy... and eventually have to give up everything that's precious to you... and you end up rejecting everything .... to prevent yourself from getting hurt any deeper...

Choosing this path is really painful. but will it be the correct one in the end?


P.S. i FINALLY found out the reason why my mum keeps asking me whether i'm gay.

-_-" For those who don't know... because i always hang out with my guy friends... so my mum's a bit paranoid....

AND i just found out the reason why she's paranoid.. is because i've got one cousin who's gay. Cause he always hung out with one of his best frds and developed feelings for each other.

But no worries... i'm 101% straight.... i'm a fair weather liberal though.. haha...

Jyukai - Anata ga Ita Mori

Fukai fukai mori no naka honoka kaoru itoshii
Hibi no omokage sagashite mireba fuini anata ga warau

Deep inside the forest, there's a faint fragrant i cherish
Searching for that everyday face, you unexpectedly smile



Furete mitakute te o nobashi temo hakanaku chuu o mattano desu

I wanted to feel you, wanted to see you. Even when i reached my hand out, your fleeting image flickered in the air.



Anata ni aitakute zutto aitakute zutto omou
Nemurenu yoru watari
Anata ga nokoshita hikari to kage no naka ni tsutsumarete naiteiru

I have always wanted to meet you, always.
Passing through the sleepless nights
I cry surrounded amidst the light and shadow you have left behind



Dame na atashi o kogashi shizumu yuuhi to
Hadashi no mama ai no zangai o funde nijinda aka

The sinking evening sun burns my useless self
My bare feet tread on the wreckage of love, seeping red



Furete miyouto te o kazashitara anata no koe ga shitano

I tried to touch your hand if it was held out, your voice said



"Aishiteru." imasara todokanu uta wa kaze ni saraware
Haruka kieteittayo
Sunadokei sora takaku tobashite mite mo nani mo ano hi no ne wa hibikazu

"I love you." Now that unreachable song has been swept away in the wind
Disappeared far away
The hourglass high in the sky, flies past whatever is seen, anything. That day's sound still echoes.

Nido to wa sawarenai keshikitachi ga
Sarasara nagare dashite

The views which cannot be touched a second time
Smoothly flowing out



"Kesenai." Fue sugita kuuki kasane sugita kioku to sono te mo sono kami mo
Anata ga nokoshita hikari to kage wa amari ni mo ooki sugiru no deshita.

"Inerasable" The increasing past atmosphere, the layers of past memories, these hands and this hair also.
The light and shadow you left behind is too much and has already become too overwhelming.


Fukai fukai mori no naka de...

Deep inside the forest...

still in the realm of sanity

ok. decided to blog while i still have free time... exam week...haha

one paper down... two more to go...

but just right at this very time.. i just had to become emo again.

couldn't sleep last night no thanks to that...

sigh. still got lots of stuff to study....

life sux life sux life sux.

k... back to mugging....

sigh

alone in my room. with a sad song on.

i just can't help but think....

that feeling ... gushing up my throat...

making my chest feel so tight....

staring at the screen here....

hoping that a miracle would happen.

but it never will.



sigh... and to add on to that... quite some other stuff going on... like playing mind games like that... arrrr .... can get quite frustrating.....

>.<"

dunno what i'm doing leh -_-"

what to do ? what to do ?

haiz. getting me all confused. and at the wrong period of time.

no thanks to my stupid phone with its super sensitive buttons.

no thanks to the accidental "wrong" calls that's been made due to that.

no thanks to the messages.

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Lost My Music - Aya Hirano ( Suzumiya Haruhi No Yuutsu )

Look up at the starry sky and tell me about my own light
Where are you now? And who are you with?

If I think about enjoying things, I feel sad
I weep all by myself at the movie that we saw together

The person who I love is faraway
Too faraway and I feel like crying
When I wake up tomorrow
Look, hope just might be born, Good night!

I still I still I love you!
I’m waiting waiting forever
I still I still I love you!
I won’t stop, Hi!!

In the depths of my slumber, my dream gives my memories a ‘One day’
And there were some lies in your words

Even though you embraced me
Saying, “I won’t let go” and “I’m only yours”
The promise softly disappeared in the dark night

I’m forever searching for
The person who I love
I’m sure that even when I wake up
I’ll still want to feel the illusion, Morning

I lost I lost I lost you!
You’re making making my music
I lost I lost I lost you!
Can’t we meet anymore? No!

The person who I love is faraway
Too faraway and I feel like crying
When I wake up tomorrow
Look, hope just might be born, Good night!

The person who I love is faraway
Too faraway and I feel like crying
I’m sure that even when I wake up
I’ll still want to feel the illusion, Morning

I still I still I love you!
I’m waiting waiting forever
I still I still I love you!
I won’t stop
I still I still I love you!
I’m waiting waiting forever
I still I still I love you!
We can meet again, right? Right!!

Evanescence - My Immortal

I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have
All of me

You used to captivate me
By your resonating life
Now I'm bound by the life you've left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along

ignorance is bliss

haha. great. just saw some stuff that i shldnt have.

making me go all havoc inside.

the pain just resonates within me. its always there.

haiz. when will i finally let go ?

bombs away

great. i've been pwned. totally. totally. totally.

feels like a bomb has been dropped on my head.

they knew about it. even if i had never told them about it.

>.<" owned owned owned.

37 hours and counting

GG 37 hours w/o sleep.

Think my mind's going a little cranky.

Talking about strange stuff... er... lets say that i'm less emo and feeling very high strangely.

I keep talking happy stuff. inspirational stuff? haha.. i dunno

my mind's walking on a tightrope between grogginess & being very clear? or maybe high.

haha lets see how long more i can last before i see hallucinations ... then see REM rebound effect... wakakakakaka

omgbbqwtf

ok... seriously wat the hell... i managed to complete doing notes for one chapter in like... 3 hours... and i was like half-dead doing it... can't exactly remember waht i went thru. it was like i was in a trance like that... but yea... its all good.. managed to finish the notes in 3 hours... when i'ld normally take like... 5+ , 6+ hours doing it.

but yea.. my mind's so fucked now. groggy. want to sleep.. but can't get to sleep strangely. like my mind's working all the way now.... but my eyes are like ...-_- zzzzz ....

and yea... benson's room is damn freaking cold.. no blanket, no pillow, no mattress watsoeva... brrrr... must remember to bring at LEAST a jacket next time...

half-awake

ok so here i am at 6am in the morning doing my notes with a half-dead brain.

Ahaha .... on my laptop at Benson's house. Finished my interpersonal and group processes chapter's notes.... then went to buy supper at ard 12+ ... then play mahjong until about 5am ( which i needed absolutely to de-stress ... yes i know i know its a waste of time but i just can't help it )... and now i'm back doing notes for social cognition... totally sleep deprived.... then will lead to rebound effect... increase in REM sleep.. which leads to more dreams... etc etc.. ok i'm going all psycho now...

back to doing my notes for social cognition... then only left with evo psych.. which i must finish by later today... so that i can start on sociology which i totally never touch and have no frigging idea what to focus on no thanks to thiru....

ok time to work. time to work. i need more coffee... bring on the mochas, cappuccinos, espressos, lattes, long blacks, kopi bing, kopi see, kopi kao...

SLEEP IS A PRIVILEAGE !! TIME IS NOT !!! WAKAKAKAKAKA GOING MAD ALREADY ... MUG MUG ... TIME FOR MANGALEE TO BECOME MUGGERLEE ONCE AGAIN

I'm awake, i'm awake

hmmm took a short nap earlier.... and pia-ed thru all my counselling stuff in 3 hrs.. finally finish the exercise + PPP + video editing..... just wondering now whether to burn them into cd or print out or something....

and.. now that i've finished my work... i just can't help but start thinking about stuff again.

my life has gone wrong in too many places. sometimes its just hard to face it all... hard to face the cold harsh reality. Especially when you see others.. enjoying what you can never grasp.... its just a sickening feeling. Especially when those people are your friends.

Thats why sometimes i really hate myself. I hate myself for being envious of friends. I hate myself for being so useless sometimes. I hate myself for screwing up so much.

I really feel the chains on my ankles and shoulders becoming heavier and heavier. I find it getting harder and harder to put on a smile these days.

Its all wrong. But i can't help it.

Oh.. why was i ever born in the first place?

jokes from HWZ forums. quite funny...

Man comes home, finds his wife with his friend in bed.

He shoots his friend to death.

Wife says 'If you behave like this, you will lose ALL your friends'.

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Small Boy wrote to Santa Claus,' send me a brother'

Santa wrote back,' SEND ME YOUR MOTHER'

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What is the definition of Mistress?

Someone between the Mister and Mattress

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Husband asks , 'Do u know the meaning of WIFE??

'Without Information Fighting Everytime'

Wife replies,' No, It means ,

'With Idiot For Ever !!!'

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Three Feelings:

What's the difference between stress, tension and panic?

Stress is when wife is pregnant,

Tension is when girlfriend is pregnant, and

Panic is when both are pregnant.

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Teacher: u know the importance of period?

Kid: Ya, once my sister said she has missed one, my mom fainted, dad got heart attack & our driver ran away.

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Why did they stop printing Pamela Anderson stamps in the U.S?

B'coz people started licking the wrong side.

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Women asked man who is traveling with six children, all these kids are urs??

No, I work in a condom factory & these are customer complaints.

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Two men met while both where looking for their lost wives.

1st: How urs look like?

2nd: She is 5'7, 36-24-36, Fair, Black eyes. Wat abt urs?

1st: Forget mine. Lets find urs!!

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Sons asks difference between confidence and confidential

Dad says, you are my son, im confident. ur friend also my son, that's confidential!

Tomoko Tane - Broken Wings

Hmmm... a song that i've got for quite some time... but i suddenly thought of it now... haha...


I know this will not remain forever
However, it's beautiful
Your eyes, hands and you warm smile
They're my treasure
It's hard to forget

I wish there was a solution
Don't spend your time in confusion
I will turn back now and spread...

My broken wings
Still strong enough to cross the ocean with
My broken wings,
How far should I go drifting in the wind?
Higher and higher in the light...

And my broken wings
Still strong enough to cross the ocean with
My broken wings,
How far should I go drifting in the wind?
Across the sky, just keep on flying...

Keisoku no dekinai itami to
Keisoku no dekinai jikan no narega
Subete wo umete shimaou toshitemo
Soredemo watashi ni wa kanjirareru
Sora kara ochitekuru no wa...

Sora kara ochitekuru no wa ame de wa nakute...

Did I ever chain you down to my heart
'Cause I was never afraid of you?
No, I couldn't hold you any longer
Love is not a toy...

Let go of me now!

The time we spend is perpetual
Our future is not real
I'll leap into the air

My broken wings
Still strong enough to cross the ocean with
My broken wings,
How far should I go drifting in the wind?
Higher and higher in the light...

And my broken wings
Still strong enough to cross the ocean with
My broken wings,
How far should I go drifting in the wind?
Across the sky, just keep on flying...

Sora kara ochitekuru no wa
are wa ame de wa nakute...

progress report

ah..... god i've been doing so much notes recently that my mind's gonna explode

For psychology.... for the past 4 days...

history...... check
research..... check
evolution.... >.<"
sensation ... check
perception... check
group........ >.<"
social cog... >.<"
learning..... check
sleep/hypno.. check

For sociology... NONE DONE !!!!

3 chapters left to go for psych.... then there' still sociology... and i haven't finished my personal position paper + exercise + editing of videos for counselling....ahh so much to do now >.<"

haven't got the chance to step out of my house for 4 days.. and damn.. i just realised i havent shaved for god knows how long... prickly feeling around my mouth.... >.<"

oh well wateva... i'm just gonna chill out for lunch with my mum outside tomorrow.. most likely at jurong point again... gonna get the comics i've missed out on for the past 2-3 weeks... and i'm planning to eat jap food tomorrow... haha...

most prob i'm gonna spend the whole bloody weekend at home mugging, completing notes and finishing up my counselling stuff... ahhhh

hm... and yea... i'm really trying to let go now. stop looking back... look forward... haha... think i changed my thinking a bit ... all thanks to the anime i watching recently.... and the GAR OST ... "raw raw fight the powa~" ... and i think that by immersing myself in mugging also really taking my mind off stuff... stop thinking too much... haha... mugging is the best medicine ? :P

d(-_-d)

And so... today october 3rd...

hopefully it'll become a beginning... beginning for me... to finally let go of the past.

"Sorry... thank you... & Goodbye" - Kenshin Himura

Goodbye, nice memories of you
Goodbye, sad memories of you
Lastly.. Goodbye to you...

its time to look forward.

it'll be hard... but i should be able to do it hopefully.

Time to move on mangalee !!! The world still moves on ! Why not you ?!

Gackt - Mizerable

Original / Romaji Lyrics English Translation

Ki zukanai furi wo shite
Chiisana mado kara tooku wo mitsumeteta
Sora ni hirogaru tenshi no koe
Kaze ni dakarete

Pretending not to notice
I gazed far outside a small window
The voice of an angel fills the sky
Embraced by the wind



Hitomi ni utsuru zawameki wa nannimo kikoenakute
Tadaima wa "amai toki no itazura da" to
Sora ni tsubuyaita

The noise reflected in your eyes can't hear a thing
Now it's just "a trick of sweet time"
I whispered to the sky



Mawaru, mawaru... okizari ni sareta jikan no naka de watashi wa ima
Les miserables
Ai shisugita anata ga kabegiwa no mukou de
Sotto waratteru

Around and round... In the time left behind, I am now
Les miserables
I loved you too much and you are now on the other side of the wall
Laughing softly



Todokanai kono omoi dake... toiki ni nosete

My feelings will never reach you... I'll put them in a sigh



Tsumetai kaze wo abinagara
Kurikaesu yoru ni omoi wo egaiteta
Sotto kuchizusamu merodi wa
Toki ni kizamarete kieru
Nido to modorenai kanashimi wa wasurerarenakute
Ima mo yureru omoi ni somaru koto dekinai karada ga
Kowaresou de...

Bathed in the cold wind
Imagining these feelings night after night
The melody I hum softly
Is etched in time and disappears
I can't forget the sadness that will I can never go back
Even now I can't dye myself with these swaying emotions and my body
Is about to break...



Hitorikiri no kanashimi wa doko ni yukeba kieru
"Wa ta shi ni a su wa a ru no..."

Where can I go so that the sadness of being alone will disappear?
"I h a v e t o m o r r o w......"



Mawaru, mawaru... okizari ni sareta jikan no naka de watashi wa ima
Les miserables
Ai shisugita anata ga kabegiwa no mukou de
Sotto waratteru
Les miserables

Around and round... In the time left behind, I am now
Les miserables
I loved you too much and you are now on the other side of the wall
Laughing softly
Les miserables



Fukaku ochite iku wasure kaketa yume no naka de watashi wa ima
Les miserables
Ai shisugita anata ga kabegiwa no mukou de
Sotto waratteru

Falling deeply into an almost forgotten dream, I am now
Les miserables
I loved you too much and you are now on the other side of the wall
Laughing softly

Todokanai kono omoi dake... toiki ni nosete
Todokanai kono omoi dake... toiki ni nosete

so here i am

hmm... posting from fund's laptop at his hall in NTU ... haha...

just went out for supper with some of the NTU peeps.... then went to jurong hill... live in jurong so long... but i never knew about jurong hill ... haha... quite ulu place.. but a hangout place for couples.

I went there under ... quite unique circumstances... haha.... act as the lightbulb along with 2 other lightbulbs.... and our presence was "necessary" .... haha...

oh well... i had a talk today with fund la. its the same thing that people have been telling me... that its me being stubborn.. and viewing everything negatively...

i really appreciate that .. people are talking to me and trying to help me.. but honestly... sometimes i just dun feel that words can reach me anymore. i'm really gone case already. stuck at the bottom of the death valley.

oh well...quite a few things have happened recently... or perhaps its just me thinking too much. well... i used to have a way of coping with all these frustrations... via my jack knife... but so unfortunately i lost it after taking a taxi sometime back... now i really dunno where to direct all these frustrations.

i'm just so afraid of happiness. happiness doesn't last. i dun wanna go thru anymore pain. too fragile.

Ahh i whine too much.. and about the same things over and over. really really really depressing. but i dunno what to do anymore. dun even know how to cope with it anymore. getting worse over the years.

Why should i deserve any happiness? I'm one big fucking liar.

to (^._.^) : perhaps i may not understand the full situation ... but you're just bringing pain onto urself. u're obviously putting on a mask but u're denying it. stop denying who u really are and what u really feel. be yourself. if he only likes your cheerful side and doesnt want to share ur problems watsoeva... then screw it ! Why behave in a way that betrays your own emotions? Why behave in a way according to other people's expectations ?? Obviously he doesn't appreciate you for who you really are. He only likes the "unreal" side of you! But yea ... if u're reading this.. u may hate me after i've said all this but.. this is what i feel honestly. so yea...

think i've said enuf.... gd morning once again ! 2nd day in a row that i'm staying up till so late... and "hell mugging week" is up ahead.. for the next 2 weeks ... before exams... so wish me luck...