wah i'm so dead / dieded/ death /deathed whatever

one asked me the other day.

now another asked me.

and they're both quite insistent about it...



is it really really that.... ???

decisions

all along ... i just missed out ...

they just passed me by...

leaving nothing but regret.




this time though... even though i see it so clearly...

i'm just gonna turn my back.

so tired. so tired.

actually i wanted to take a "time-out" tonight from life.

but sadly i just can't find the time to do so and just chill in this quiet place.


there'll always be another time.


but the question remains stuck in my head over and over.

"Go or stay" ?

haha... ended the holidays on a sleepy note.

started school with a bang !


hahaha... all thanks to the mj on saturday night + hockey + project / outing combination over the weekend... when i got back home on sunday at around 7:45 pm ... i concussed all the way till the next morning... hahaha...

started school at the new campus... still having ongoing constructions... no cafe... no water cooler... the place is relatively erm... dirty with mud stains on the ground due to the construction...

but yea... it's going to turn out real nice once it's all done :D hopefully got water coolers and shower facilities... and perhaps more as time goes on... hahahaha....

oh man i'm so shagged out still... haven't shaken off the effects of the weekend madness...

and HAH ! IQ test in class.... all i can say is..

"It's all elementary, my dear Watson " ( erm.. sherlock holmes and watson izzit ? )

hahahaha

ok i'm too shagged out to type anymore. sleeping relatively earlier tonight.

sleep beckons.

we shall see.

we shall see...

erm... haha another nice day :D

surprising things happened ! LOL

thanks for everything :D




somehow i smell a storm coming... ahahahaha

2 of the best days so far in recent times :D

project, then outing, then mj, then back home, then jap lunch, then sleep ~

wahahaha tonight was just wtf.

all dota matches. lost all. suckumteh~ suckumteh~

never mind ! tomorrow will be a better day :D wahahahaha

but today really got pwned by ES a few times... zzzz

shall make my come back soon~

and my hand's itchy for some... MJ...

sigh.

Crumbling Faith. Unyielding Doubt. Vanishing Vision

damn it !

5 days already and my hands still have no power in them... zzzz... cant even tear / open the plastic off my comics....

and my left arm's shaking quite a lot whenever holding anything... even something as light as a comic book... -_-"



oh well. this means back to soccer then. hahaha !

and oh... goodbye bukit merah. hello thomson... soon !



somehow... inspired to write something due to my melancholic mood + the song i'm listening to now...






The piano broke its silence.

Distorted, the broken melody filled the air.

His eyes lost their glitter,

as his trembling fingers touched the keys named "Sorrow".

Praying for a miracle,

Playing for tomorrow,

The never ending Yesterdays echo behind.

Crumbling Faith,

Unyielding Doubt,

Vanishing Vision...



He would never see it ever again...

not within his embracing arms.

Tears of the sunshine faded away

Swept away by the hollow darkness of the night.

Black and white images flashed upon the silver screen.

Giving it's last shout as the reel steadily burnt away.

Ashes to ashes, dust to dust.

Crushed beneath the sands of time.

Blown away by the ravages of the wind.

Drowned by the jubilance of the new day.

Forgotten by the beatless heart.





Alone he was not.

And so, he held her hand.

:D

haha... was really looking forward to today... finally meeting up with my hockey mates from JC to play hockey at NUS...which had been "arranged" since i think... last weekend? ahaha....

as for the past 2 days...

and so saturday afternoon... a message pops up from MSN

" DOTA ! *nudge* "
haha... and so played dota for a few hours, then somehow arranged to go for dinner and then stayover at ben's house tonight... then with a few gd fly kites, there was only me, fer and ben at er.. his house... ahaha...played dota at first... until we managed to "psycho" willy into coming down... cause he wanted to play MJ... ended up making me come out of "retirement"

ahahaha... and so mj until 4-5am... won about 20... donated half to charity... cause i was thinking sometime before... if i ever play mahjong again... half the money would go to charity... hahaha... no idea why i thought of that.

then woke up early.. around 845am... called the rest up... made my way down to NUS bball courts area... in the end... there was only yu han , debbie, me and jin feng... hahaha... 4 ppl. mmm... but i was glad to see them la ~ so long never meet up with them leh... especially jin feng.

ahhh... went for lunch with my family... and found out my hands couldnt hold chopsticks properly.. had trouble controlling my fingers... cause of whacking balls using the hockey stick... hahaha..

just glad ... and tired... really really miss the days when i used to play hockey. back then it was really a huge part of my life. hopefully now can play more often or something... jsut need to get more people and more "regular/consistency" ahaha.

yawn.

the narcoleptic in me is calling again.

zzzzzz

hm... actually was in the mood of doing some writings up here... but then seems like my creative juices have just ran out... haha...

break the rules to get the job done.

just make sure you don't get caught.

:)

i'm feeling happy right now.

no idea why also.

LOL

张栋梁-北极星的眼泪

张栋梁-北极星的眼泪

消失人海里面
我的眼终于失去
你的脸
再等一会
奢望流星会出现
愿
如果真的实现
爱能不能永远
明天
或许来不及变
但曾经走过的昨天
越来越远
北极星的眼泪
说不出的想念
原来我们活在
两个世界
北极星的眼泪
你哭红的双眼
被淋湿的诺言
淹没在心里面
我抬头看着
爱不见再等一会
奢望流星会出现
愿
如果真的实现
爱能不能永远
明天
或许来不及变
但曾经走过的昨天
越来越远
北极星的眼泪
说不出的想念
原来我们活在
两个世界
北极星的眼泪
你哭红的双眼
被淋湿的诺言
淹没在心里面
我抬头看着
爱不见当对的人
等不到对的时间
就在放放开手的瞬间
爱撕成两边
北极星的眼泪
说不出的想念
原来我们活在两个世界
北极星的眼泪
你哭红的双眼
被淋湿的诺言
淹没在心里面
我抬头看着爱
不见
整个宇宙都
流眼泪

tumbling away

k... back to normal life *cough cough*

somehow it seems like my body's failing on me recently. my lethargy has reached new heights... normally i sleep in class it's ok...but then when i go home and sleep for a few hours after school also... there's something wrong here.

just tired all the time. especially today. my eyes felt extremely tired and painful also today...

er i know some people might say it's because i sleep late... but when i'm used to sleeping around 3-4am... i've been sleeping earlier these days... say 1+, 2+... and still i feel worse.

and not to mention that recently i just suffered backache , sore throat ... and also still having a bad stomach.

bleahz.

hopefully somehow it'll all be better soon... just need something to regenerate myself...

my mood's been affected by it all also. been somewhat more grouchy recently.

bleahz.

Dedicated to Man Chun Ye Ye ~

ey haha er...firstly

Happy Belated Birthday to Martin Li Man Chun Ye Ye

wahahahahaha

and er... see you in 1 week's time! mai tu liao ! go go chiong ar ! QB. Martell. Max Tune ! (can afford to play a bit at the start of each month)

and where's the DOTA ????

hahaha.

Man chun yeye ! i miss you ! gay partner !!! ( :P hope ky dun see this LOL )

and i still remember the time in clementi... walao take away my first time ! LOL

haha... anyway... yea... take care over there k ? wish you all the best !

er... study hard, play hard, DRINK hard !

:P

whew. what a day. ahahahahaha

morning went to NUH... went to do a checkup for my heart... so far everything still seems ... fine... though there were funny implications the last time round...

so yea. that means. time for more sports once again!

went to school... found out that the results had been released for last semester... got 2 Ds and 1C ... forensic's still pending..cause of the stupid screwed up final exam which 95% of the cohort failed...

P.S.: D = distinction , C = credit.... not the usual A,B,C,D people use !

so overall results not bad la. considered good for someone who sleeps all day long in classes... oh ahaha that reminds me... something funny happened. i happened to meet one of my tutors from last semester at macdonalds. he recognised my frens... but couldnt recognise me. until i bent my head down and he saw the top of my head... and he went " OHHHH you're the one who's always sleeping in class... "

-_-||


and oh... watched "Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind" today for the group project thingy... set off a few triggers in me... but other than that i was totally fine... not bad... but got slightly draggy.

and then had an early dinner... and night class which i slept in again...

ahhh... crap i'm feeling hungry again now...

hm... there is quite a large possibility that it may happen.

but hopefully it doesnt.

even so... i'm definitely not doing anything.

it'll always be a case of never never.

搁浅

~搁浅~
歌:周杰伦
作词:宋健彰作曲:周杰伦
钢琴:周杰伦编曲:钟兴民


久未放晴的天空
依旧留着你的笑容
哭过却无法掩埋歉疚

风筝在阴天搁浅
想念还在等待救援
我拉着线复习你给的温柔

暴晒在一旁的寂寞
笑我给不起承诺
怎么会怎么会你竟原谅了我

我只能永远读着对白
读到我给你的伤害
我原谅不了我
就请你当作我已不在

我睁开双眼看着空白
忘记你对我的期待
读完了依赖
我很快就离开

久未放晴的天空
依旧留着你的笑容
哭过却无法掩埋歉疚

风筝在阴天搁浅
想念还在等待救援
我拉着线复习你给的温柔

暴晒在一旁的寂寞
笑我给不起承诺
怎么会怎么会你竟原谅了我

我只能永远读着对白
读到我给你的伤害
我原谅不了我
就请你当作我已不在

我睁开双眼看着空白
忘记你对我的期待
读完了依赖
我很快就...

我只能永远读着对白
读到我给你的伤害
我原谅不了我
就请你当作我已不在

我睁开双眼看着空白
忘记你对我的期待
读完了依赖
我很快就离开

fuck off. u fucking cb.

haven't blogged in quite a while. been too tired and busy to do so recently. and i'm also not feeling well now.

hm.... recent events.... mainly enjoyed the last week of holidays last week... attended cousin's wedding on saturday...sunday night went to martin's farewell dinner + drinking...

wah fuck drink until damn hiong that night... i also dunno what i doing already...

rushed home to watch euro 08... puked before doing so though.

woo hoo ! spain won ! the team i support ... wahahaha.

and so started school on monday... slept at 5am then wake up 7:30am due to a phone call ... damn shag sia when i go to school... then tio diarrhoea on the very same day...

then yesterday... had sch from morning till 5... then went to the airport to send martin off... see u soon !

today. woke up to a bad start. backache + diarrhoea + heavy head + sore throat.

bleahz.

busy busy. tired tired.