wooottoooo zutttoooo

wah. been a long time since i really drank. got somewhat tipsy at the bar/lounge wateva... then lol thanks to the rest who made my night... especially since i'd been feeling down recently. although supposed to just accompany my frd... and i said that i wouldnt drink... end up drinking, playing dice, karaoke... and on top of that ... the "funny stuff" they try to do to me ... haha....thanks for everything guys :D

about the "funny stuff"... actually i'm really sober. just that i got a little high. but haha... not high enuf to make me go all the way. nice try guys. next time maybe. lol. felt a bit good. but no no ~ lol. just cannot do it. hyuk hyuk hyuk.

die. i'm still feeling high now. makes me feel like doing some crazy stuff. think the alcohol is finally kicking in after a few hours. maybe now if u asked me to do the "funny stuff", i'ld jsut whack liao and dun care and kill it off.

wheeeeeeeee. siao liaoz. lots of random thoughts now.

thanks to the people who've been around when i was feeling down. your presence alone made me feel better. just cant express enuf gratitude.

and lol... thinking back about this week. i think i've really been a bastard. especially after crossing the line emotionally. just didnt manage to climb back. let all the small small stuff affect me when normally it just wouldnt.

bleahz. my parents got me a new chinese name. which i ABSOLUTELY ABHOR. it's unofficial though.... the new chinese name wont be seen on my IC. and it FREAKING SOUNDS LIKE A GIRL'S NAME. SO NO NO NO ~!!! i die die also wont adopt that.

and tonight i was just thinking. fuck it. why hold back. want to do something ~ just do it !!! be happy !!! why the hell hold yourself back ! just do anything to make urself feel good. i happy then can make others happy also. i sad will only make others sad. wheee..... think i've crossed back onto the light side again. or maybe it's just the alcohol making me feel high. hopefully when i wake up tomorrow i'll still be feeling all good. suddenly everything seems so positive now. must be the alcohol.

haha...think my posts making no sense already. the influence of the alcohol slowly kicking in... chivas regal >.<" . actually only drink little little + super a lot of mixer cause i can't hold my alcohol... end up due to the "unforseen" circumstances from the "funny stuff" ...ended up whacking so much for my standards. die.

i wonder if the next time i try that "funny stuff" again... how far would i go... especially if i really do push my limits of alcohol...think it's all up to the rest of my buddies to sabo me... wahahahaha

ok typing a lot. super a lot. long post. long time since i last post liao. haha...

and whee ~ singing "bei pan" by cao ge... felt really good. super super super good. haha...

and die. still need to wake up relatively early. now already 4am + ... from boat quay...

new motto learnt? < I want to be happy. So i can make others happy :D >

shall go bathe and sleep. still need the energy for tomorrow.

tata~